The Long Family's Blog

This is Happening

2012-01-26T13:32:00.000-08:00

Thank you to everyone for your kind words, advice, support, prayers, and love. We need and appreciate all of those things. We simply could not press through this without you. We know that Heavenly Father loves us and is looking out for us by sending all of you into our lives. Everything is set to begin next week: travel, housing, preliminary consultation, conference. Here we go again.

Logisitcs

2012-01-14T09:08:00.000-08:00

I have so much to do in so little time! We are heading to Seattle in two weeks. Jacob and I are going to be there for four months. The details of relocating are overwhelming me right now. I'm so thankful that my in-laws will help out caring for Ethan and my parents are going to drive our car all the way to Seattle. Both of those are BIG helps! There are still a lot of things I'm trying to work out. To start off, I've never flown with a child before and all the extra gear that will require: stroller, car seat, his own luggage, my own luggage, carry-ons, etc. How am I supposed to keep track of everything and carry it?? And let's throw on top of that, Jacob is a child that needs to be protected from airport and airplane germs, needs medications transported, some of which need to be refrigerated (how am I supposed to do that? Would TSA let me pack a cooler? Getting through security is going to be a nightmare.)... masks, anti bacterial wipes, Purell...Housing is also stressing me out. I wanted to get an apartment at the Ronald McDonald House, but it turns out, we'd have to be in communal housing (shared kitchen and laundry room) until Jacob is discharged. Then they would try to move us to the apartment style, self contained housing for BMT patients, if there is one open (they only have 10 of those). I'm not sure I want to do the communal housing thing, although the RMH is closest to the hospital. The other option would be to get into the Pete Gross apartments, which are closest to the out-patient clinic. Although they didn't look as nice as the RMH, we'd have our own apartment, with laundry, full kitchen, and a separate bedroom & sleeper couch, from the get go. Breathe, Kylene, breathe....

Ok, here is the tentative schedule of what REALLY matters most: Jacob starts his out-patient work ups on January 31st. The work ups will last for about two weeks. If he is found healthy enough, he will be admitted on February 16th to start five days of chemotherapy and then one rest day before his transplant on February 22nd. He will be in-patient for about 3-4 weeks after transplant while waiting for engraftment to take place. If he is stable after engraftment, then he will be discharged and followed closely through out-patient visits until 100 days post transplant. After that, we will be able to come home to continue his care. Once again, he will be pretty isolated for his own protection. It will take about a year for his immune system to recover. I can't believe that Ethan will be almost done with 1st grade and Jacob will be almost 5 years old by the time we can (hopefully) resume a normal family life. I just really can't wait until Jacob gets to come to church with us every week. He will love singing songs in Primary and making new friends in his class. I can't wait for him to be able to spend the day at Disneyland or to be able to go on vacation with us, or simply just to have friends over to play. That goes for Ethan, too. He hasn't been able to have friends over either since Jacob's first BMT. I'm so glad that the two of them are best friends. I can't imagine how lonely Jacob would be without his big brother! Maybe Jacob will get his line out this summer and actually be able to get his tummy wet in the bathtub or in a kiddie pool. In April, he will have had his central line for an entire year. I want Jacob to be able to play on the beach or go camping with his dad or simply just to play at the park or go to preschool. It's been way too long since he's really been able to have any rich experiences. Considering Jacob was diagnosed when he was only 15 months old, this has been a very long and strenuous trial for our family. But, the future is bright! We have been given this miracle through bone marrow transplantation and through amazingly generous people on the National Marrow Donor Registry. It still blows me away how selfless and good people truly are. This precious soul, who doesn't even know us, is willing to sacrifice his time and comfort to save our son. If you are interested in being on the registry, visit bethematch.org to see if you qualify. Registration is free for the month of January.

Perfectly Matched Donors

2012-01-10T09:37:00.000-08:00

I talked to the transplant coordinator at the Seattle Cancer Care Alliance (SCCA) yesterday. She said Jacob's panel reactive antibodies test came back in and they now have all the information they need to find the very best donor and begin the transplant process. Jacob is fortunate to have many perfectly matched donors in the national registry. It is a blessing that we can find someone who is not only perfectly matched, but also meets other less important criteria, such as being CMV negative, like Jacob is, and matching his blood type. So far it looks like our best match is a 37 year-old North American male. He was originally Jacob's backup the last time and has already been typed. In the back of my mind, I already knew Jacob would have a lot of matches because he did the first time around, but receiving the call and hearing of these amazing people who want to save someone's life through bone marrow donation still touches my heart deeply.

Many of you have asked how you can help our family. One way is to sign up for the National Marrow Donor Program at bethematch.org. Jacob is very fortunate to have matches, but many children have to settle for less than perfect matches, increasing their risk for further complications after transplant. The more people who sign up to be donors, the more chances there will be for children to have their perfect match. So please sign up! Be someone's hero!

The next step for us is to wait to hear on proposed dates. The clinicians decide based on the urgency of the case and the availability of the facilities. Once they choose, the date is proposed to the donor who would need to do a physical exam prior to donation, and then go through the actual bone marrow extraction on the day of Jacob's transplant. If the donor agrees upon the proposed dates, then everything is scheduled around Day 0, which is transplant day. If the donor is unavailable on the proposed date then dates will be discussed back and forth until something is agreed upon.

It is a huge relief to hear that things are moving along favorably, but also somewhat nerve-racking that this is all happening again.

Hopeful for 2012

2012-01-02T09:18:00.000-08:00

Last week we took Jacob in for an HLA typing confirmation draw and also a cheek swab to see what his DNA looks like. Although Jacob's HLA typing was already done from his first transplant (this is what doctors use to determine who would be a good bone marrow donor match), they always have to confirm it again before initiating a new search, just to be 100% sure. The cheek swabs were something new. The nurse commented that she felt like she was on CSI as she performed the swabs. The reason for them is because even though Jacob rejected his first graft, he still may have some lingering donor cells in his body, slightly changing his DNA, which would be important for his transplant team to be aware of. For now, we wait to hear if a suitable donor (hopefully a PERFECTLY matched donor) is found.

As I think upon this new year, I have mixed feelings of hope and fear.

Hope that THIS is going to be the year that Jacob is cured and that by the end of the year he will be recovering from his BMT. Hope that we will someday resume a "normal" family life. Hope that we will be able to give Jacob a full life, filled with rich experiences.

Fear of moving away from my home, husband, Ethan, and extended family members. Fear that the procedure won't work. And fear, that it may cause so much damage to Jacob, that in the end, we will lose this battle.

Last year at the same time, I had similar feelings and thought for sure by 2012 things would be resolved. Here we are again, starting from scratch. As a wise friend of mine taught in church yesterday, "it is better to look up." I'm going to take that to heart and focus on the hopeful aspects that could come of this year. In the grand scale of things, this will be but a small moment in time.

Sleepless in Seattle

2011-12-13T08:15:00.000-08:00

Last night, Josh and I returned home from a WHIRLWIND trip to Seattle. We were able to check out three different housing options, tour Seattle Children's Hospital, and have a lengthy consultation with the doctor overseeing the trial, all in one day. I think it's going to take me a couple of days to recover from the exhaustion! After speaking with the doctor, we gave the authorization to initiate a search for a new bone marrow match and to proceed forth with whatever testing needs to be done. She said she could see this getting started as early as January. I'm glad we are going with this regimen. The doctor said Jacob is a high risk transplant patient since this will be his second time around being harmed by the effects of the chemotherapy and other medications, plus the fact that he has some unidentified swollen nodules on his lungs. They have transplanted high risk patients on this regimen with good results, so we are trying to stay hopeful.

A Way Overdue Update

2011-11-20T11:29:00.000-08:00

I apologize for the delay of communication lately. It's not for lack of action around here. In fact, it's quite the opposite. Jacob has been doing well since our last hospitalization in September, but we've had a lot of major decisions to make: whether we want Jacob do go through a second bone marrow transplant, and if so, when, where, and how would we have it done. We have made some progress in some of those areas.

First, after much inner conflict on my part, we have decided that we should try again. It was a very difficult decision to come to seeing Jacob eating well again and watching his counts creep back toward normalcy. I hate to start from square one and watch him suffer and face complication after complication all over again. I feel grateful that he is almost completely recovered from his transplant in April. He even got the okay to join everyone for our Thanksgiving dinner.

The second question we face is when would we want to go through transplant again. My initial decision was to wait a year or so to enjoy having him healthy and at home again. However, part of the complication that presents, is with CGD, there is a window of good health that is ideal for transplant. The patient must be free from infections, namely fungal (e.g. aspergillus) infections, otherwise, he can no longer be a candidate for transplant because of the increase in risk. Once a patient gets a fungal infection, the doctors are never convinced that it is completely gone, even if labs and procedures say it is gone. It is just too sneaky of an infection and could prove fatal if found in an immunosuppressed (BMT) patient.

So, thinking through that logic, we decided the sooner the better, as much as it pains me to say it. Jacob has never had a major fungal infection that has been detected. He's had some abnormalities on his lungs, swollen lymphnodes, that came back benign after a biopsy was performed pre (first) transplant. After Jacob underwent chemotherapy at Children's Hospital Los Angeles, there was a test that indicated that Jacob may have had a nonspecific fungal infection, but it was never determined what it was and was never detected again after that. The other minor issue that pushed us to sooner rather than later on a second transplant was that his doctor wanted to have his central line removed. It might sound silly, but I'd rather have his line removal be a sign of a successful BMT and recovery, not just a postponement of more dreadful things to come. So there you have it.

That brings us to where and how we'd like to have it done. After being in communication with a couple of other CGD moms, I really liked the sound of going to Texas Children's. They have transplanted 15 CGD patients, 10 of which were unrelated donors, with a 100% success rate. Those are amazing numbers! After I brought it up to Jacob's doctor, he suggested we also investigate Seattle Children's, as well as do a followup with the team at Children's L.A.

The team at CHLA admitted that they didn't know why Jacob rejected his graft. They had a few possibilities to explain it, but nothing for certain. They also mentioned that if he went through another reduced intensity transplant, he'd have a 25% chance of rejecting the graft again. However, if we did a full myeloid ablative protocol, which they were recommending, he'd only have a 10% chance of rejecting the graft, but a 25% chance of mortality. Neither option sounded very hopeful to me, and I left not feeling any better than before we consulted with them.

Incidentally, the BMT doctor and CGD specialist doctor we met with at CHLA noticed the rash that Jacob has had on his face recently (see the picture above). The CGD specialist wanted to rule out the possibility of a fungal rash and suggested getting it cultured. The BMT doctor thought it looked like graft versus host disease (GVHD) and got our hopes up slightly about the possibility that the donor cell count might have increased. Neither seems to have been the case. I had just figured it was the same sort of eczema rash common amongst GCD carriers. A blood sample was sent off to check Jacob's chimerism (the percentage of donor cells vs. his old cells), and unfortunately there was no evidence of improvement in donor cell engraftment. A dermatologist assessed Jacob and said the rash didn't look fungal.

A couple of weeks after our CHLA appointment, our doctor called saying he spoke to Seattle Children's and would have them give us a call because they are running a trial up there for which Jacob would qualify. Basically, they replace busulfan, which is an extremely toxic chemotherapy drug used in bone marrow transplantation, with a trial drug called treosulfan. Treosulfan does the same job of aggressively killing the immune system in preparation for transplantation, without the same toxicity to the liver and lungs, and is still a myeloid ablative chemotherapy, which increases the chance for engraftment. It is a preferred drug to high risk patients like Jacob and other children with immune deficiencies, because it does less damage to the body. They are in phase two of the trial and have tranplanted 28 patients in the past two years, 3 of which were CGD patients, who are all doing well. The mortality rate is 10%, versus 25% with busulfan. The one patient that they lost came in for a second transplant and was already suffering from severe GVHD. We are hopeful that Jacob is in good enough health from the start that he would pull through successfully. 100% of their patients engrafted. After speaking directly with the doctor conducting the trial, both Josh and I feel good about traveling there for a consultation and to meet with the transplant and immunology teams. We are waiting to hear about travel arrangements and such.

The other bonus about Seattle (and this may seem trivial), is that Kaiser has a contract with them so we would not have to file appeals to have our insurance cover the transplant, like we'd have to if we ended up going to Texas Children's. It's just one less concern to have to stress over, however unimportant it may sound.

On another note, here are my two super handsome Spideys on Halloween:

We had a fun time doing the trunk-or-treat, minus the face mask and the panic attacks I get any time Jacob's hands touch ANYTHING or anyone outside our house; you just don't know what kinds of germs people and things carry. Josh even sanitized the candy wrappers before we let the kids sort through their stash.

Cultures & Medicine

2011-09-22T19:17:00.000-07:00

We ended up moving back to peds, which means the doctors feel he is heading in the right direction. The bacterial culture from this morning came back negative for the first time since we were admitted. That means the treatment seems to be working. Also, Jacob’s c. diff infection came back negative. While that is good news, I’m not holding my breath on that one since we’ve had negative results before only to come back positive again. The para influenza virus that Jacob was admitted for a couple weeks ago is still coming back positive, so they started him on an antiviral to help him. The positive reading could just be from proteins that the virus made in his blood, but they want to treat him for it just to be cautious. If the treatments go well, we could be home in 7-10 days. They are also treating Jacob’s central line by letting an antibiotic sit in there for 12 hours. They don’t want to take any chances of the bacteria sticking to the line and coming back. I’m glad they are being very thorough. Jacob seems to be feeling better. He can sit up on his own to play for a few minutes and he is happy, which makes me happy too.

Smile

2011-09-22T07:10:00.000-07:00

I missed that smile!

Jacob didn’t have any fevers last night and slept well. I was even able to snap a few happy pictures of him before bed. He got blood yesterday which also helped to perk him up. It sounds like we might be moved back over to the peds floor today. Their concern right now is that Jacob's temperature is actually running low, which the doctor said could be a sign of infection.

On another note...

The view of the nurses strike from our window

PICU

2011-09-20T13:24:00.000-07:00

My brave little man

Jacob was transferred to PICU early this morning after one of his blood cultures came back as gram negative rods, most likely e. coli. Needless to say, this is a very dangerous bacteria, and even more so for CGD patients. Jacob’s cells are helpless against this type of bacteria and he can only be cured through antibiotics. I’m glad we immediately brought Jacob in yesterday. He slept the entire day and night and didn’t break his fever until later this morning. It’s starting to rise again and we are waiting for a dose of Tylenol to come. He’s been awake today, albeit, miserable. His body must just ache because he cannot identify where it hurts, but he just cries at the slightest little thing. The fact that he’s awake is a step in the right direction according to his doctor. If he continues to improve, we will move back over to peds in another day or two to finish his treatment and recovery. In the picture, he is undressed down to his diaper to try to help bring his temp back down. This is Jacob's first hospital stay where he has slept in a big boy bed and it's so nice to be able to lie down next to him to comfort him. He seems to really like it, too.

Jacob

2011-09-19T14:30:00.001-07:00

Jacob is back in the hospital for the second time this month. I brought him in a couple of weeks ago because he was spiking a fever and for a BMT patient, that can be very serious. After a couple of days, Jacob seemed to be improving and there were no red flags in his work ups, so he was able to come home. He came back positive for a virus, but the doctor thought his body would be able to fight it off over time. Jacob really did seem to be doing better for the past week. We went in for his check up on Friday and his liver function tests were way off, however. The doctor thought it might’ve been from the virus, but wasn’t sure. He had planned on retesting him today or tomorrow, but Jacob was spiking a fever this morning and had thrown up a couple of times, so the doctor had us bring him back in to the hospital right away. Jacob is sleeping now and getting some iv hydration, along with some antibiotics. He took some Tylenol an hour and a half ago, but his fever has stayed the same. The doctors are considering moving him over to PICU so he can be more closely monitored.

We also recently found out that Jacob’s new bone marrow is almost entirely gone. His body rejected the graft and he has mostly his old cells back now. A lot of people ask where we go from here. The doctors have talked about infusing more cells from the same donor. This idea may have worked a couple months ago when he still had more donor cells, but now it is pretty much just a shot in the dark. Another option could be to do a second BMT. The thought of putting Jacob through that and starting all over again turns my stomach. He is still so fragile and weak from the first time around and from whatever he is fighting now, it just seems like a bad idea. I’m not even certain that his body could handle it. He definitely couldn’t handle it in the condition that he is in right now. I told the doctors we are not ready for that. For now, we just hope that his body heals and that his prophylactic medications protect him from CGD related infections.

First Day of School

2011-08-08T17:54:00.001-07:00

My little fireball Ethan had his first day of kindergarten today. Although he won't admit it, I think he had a great time and is in for a fantastic year. What makes it extra special, is that he shares the campus with his Grandma Judy, who is a first grade teacher there. They got a chance to share a hug before school started this morning. It's a comfort to me knowing that the staff already knows about Ethan and has been looking forward to him attending school there.

Change of Plans

2011-08-06T18:21:00.000-07:00

Our family heart attacked and decorated our house for Jacob's welcome home.

Ethan's so happy to have his little brother home again.

Jacob is NG tube-free!

In our last post, Josh mentioned that the doctors had requested Jacob's donor in order to give Jacob a boost of cells to help strengthen his graft. Last Friday, Jacob's NBT test (the test that indicates how protected he is against CGD related infections) came back at 35%. This is great news! His past three NBT test results have gone from 29% to 30% to 35%. We haven't heard what yesterday's results are yet, but we are hoping that his score is still going up or at the very least, holding steady. According to the doctors, a person only needs about 12% functionality to be healthy, so 35% would be great! Because of this encouraging news, the doctors have decided to put a hold on readmitting Jacob for his boost of donor cells for now, as long as his NBT score holds steady, despite his extremely low 1.55% donor myeloid cells from his last chimerism test. Apparently, the NBT test result is more significant to Jacob's disease than the chimerism results. So, that is our biggest news.

I also wanted to mention that on Thursday, Jacob's NG tube clogged so badly that we couldn't push anything through it. Since it was useless and knowing Jacob had a checkup the next day and could get another tube, we went ahead and pulled it out. Since Jacob did such a good job taking his medicines orally on Thursday, the doctor said to go ahead and give Jacob a chance to start eating and drinking again. If he can eat, drink, and take medicine, then he no longer needs the nose tube. I'm happy to say that he has been doing wonderfully with these three tasks. Whenever he gives me a hard time with his medicine, I offer to put his nose tube back in, and that quickly resolves the problem. :) Ethan has also been a great helper when Jacob chooses him to administer medicine. Who would have thought!

Ethan starts kindergarten in two days! Last year we kept him in preschool for a second year to give him a chance to mature a little more, and now I feel like he is more than ready for his school experience. He turns 6 in October, so he will probably be the oldest kid in his class, which will hopefully give him a little bit of an advantage throughout his school years.

Jacob Is Home! ... For Now

2011-07-25T07:59:00.000-07:00

Let's start with the good news: Jacob came home from the hospital on Wednesday! He has been enjoying spending time at home with both of his parents and his big brother. In fact, we've all been enjoying spending time together as a whole family, which we hadn't been able to do very much for about 3 ½ months.

Jacob still has his central line and his NG tube in, and he's still on his regimen of medications throughout the day and nutritional supplementation at night via the NG tube. Kylene and I are basically Jacob's nurses now; we have been trained in administering his medicine every four hours during the day and operating his automatic feed machine at night, changing the dressing over his central line site and replacing the tape holding the NG tube to his face as often as needed, flushing his central line daily to keep it functional, replacing the caps on the central line lumens weekly, etc. Of course, we're also responsible for constantly reminding him to be careful not to be too rough or careless with his central line since we don't want it to pull out, and throughout the day we try to encourage him to eat. He's been doing better at eating since he's been home, although he promptly spits out much of the food that he tries—often onto the new carpet.

With all of the medical knowledge and training we've gained in recent months, Kylene and I joke with each other that we could practically be MDs or nurses. Now maybe we could add carpet cleaning specialists to our repertoire. But I digress.

On Friday, Kylene took Jacob to CHLA for a follow-up appointment with a BMT doctor, where we received the bad news: the latest sorted chimerism report shows that while the percentage of certain donor cells is very high (79.2–85.5%), the percentage of certain other donor cells has dropped to almost nothing (1.55–3.25%). According to the BMT doctor, the type of cell that has dropped to 1.55% donor DNA must be higher for Jacob to be effectively cured of CGD. This seems to contradict the 30% coverage against CGD-related infections from the last NBT test, which was done prior to the last sorted chimerism. They drew blood for another NBT test on Friday, but we found out this morning that they made a mistake when doing the test and will have to redo it (this is not the first time this has happened with that test at CHLA). Now we apparently have to wait until Jacob's next CHLA visit on Friday for them to draw blood for another NBT test.

In any case, the BMT doctor indicated that they would be contacting the donor to try to get him to donate stem cells from his blood that can then be infused into Jacob to boost his donor cell count. The donor would just have to agree to take GCSF (the white blood cell boosting drug that Jacob took for one day prior to a test once) for 5 days prior to the stem cell extraction, which should be painless unlike the bone marrow aspiration that the donor went through before. If the donor agrees to donate cells, Jacob would have to be hospitalized for an extended period of time again. If for some reason the donor refused (probably unlikely), Jacob would have to find another bone marrow match and go through the entire bone marrow transplant process all over again, chemo and radiation and all (although I'd guess that they probably wouldn't do the reduced intensity treatment this time). It was very frustrating to find this out just two days after Jacob got home. We already wondered whether they might have been in too much of a hurry to get him home given that the last sorted chimerism results were still pending and there was another C. diff test that needed to be done.

Speaking of which, we also found out this morning that after two negative results for C. diff after finishing his Flagyl treatment, the third test showed that he does currently have C. diff. Both Jacob and Ethan have been having C. diff-like symptoms, and we know that C. diff is highly contagious, so we're trying to figure out some way to get Ethan tested (they won't just prescribe Flagyl based on Ethan's symptoms and the fact that his brother has C. diff, and Kylene can't just bring in Ethan to be tested because she can't take Jacob out in public, and I work during the day so I can't take Ethan in either).

On the bright side, at least we get to have Jacob home for a few weeks or however long it takes before the donor can donate cells.

On the less bright side, my academic leave of absence ends August 14th, which means I have to get back into my Ph.D. studies just three weeks from today, and Jacob could be in back the hospital around then. I have no idea how I'm going to maintain my sanity and fit everything into my life; it's been stressful enough without having school studies and assignments on top of everything else. My next class covers statistics, so if anyone reading this is a statistics expert and would be willing to help me occasionally, please get in touch with me.

We continue to be in need of your faith and prayers as we go through this extremely stressful and trying time in our lives.

Moving to the New Hospital

2011-07-17T15:53:00.000-07:00

Everyone wants Jacob's picture

He is the final patient to move

Bye, bye old room!

View from Jacob's new room

Jacob, and the rest of the patients at CHLA, moved from the old hospital to the new one today. Jacob was selected for a press event, so he had a photo shoot with the media. Here he is getting to leave his home from the past 3 1/2 months. His sign says, "They Saved The Best For Last" because he is the very last patient to leave the old hospital. So cute! I love that he's also giving a little shout out to my alma mater with his shirt. I'm sure Josh planned that on purpose. His new room looks out onto Sunset Blvd. Although we will only be here for 3-4 more days, I'm sure he will enjoy looking down on the street. There are a lot of emergency vehicles that pass by that will be intriguing for him to watch. We might even be able to see an emergency helicopter or two land on the helipad across the street.

Day +91 Coming Home Soon!

2011-07-15T16:22:00.000-07:00

The doctors have decided that any other testing they are monitoring can be done outpatient. Jacob has held steady at 30% coverage for his CGD while off immunosuppressants, so we will just watch to see if he needs a boost of donor cells or not. His doctors are happy with 30%, so we hope and pray that he holds onto that. He will have a lot of restrictions once he's home, like following a special diet, not having children visit, avoiding the sun, not being in public places. We basically have to avoid germs and conditions which could flare up his graft versus host. We are excited to have him home, but nervous about the extensive care he requires. He is coming home with a double lumen central line which needs to be cleaned and flushed daily. We also have to change the dressing at least weekly. He's coming home with his NG tube and a pump to run his formula, so we will have to learn how to set all of that up. Not to mention his myriad of medications to keep track of: antifungal, antibiotics, antiviral, appetite increaser, folic acid, etc. This is an exciting, yet a little scary, time, as I become his full time nurse.

Day +86

2011-07-10T22:55:00.000-07:00

I only ever feel like posting when we have good news, which is why it has taken so long for an update, so I apologize. I know a lot of you are worrying and praying for Jacob and our family, and we do appreciate it and want to keep you informed of the details. The good news on Jacob right now is that he is back up to his caloric goal getting formula through his NG tube. He had lost a bit of weight, so it's good to nurture him back to health. Other good news is that he hasn't thrown up for almost two weeks straight (knock on wood). The latest bad news is that he seems to still be rejecting the graft. The other CGD patient who had the procedure just before Jacob had 100% donor cells when he got discharged (lucky), and Jacob is down to 29% right now. It's depressing how one thing works for one patient, but not for another. The immune system is so complicated, even the doctor admitted they are still learning the intricacies of it. They are going to test Jacob again on Thursday to see if he is still trending down now that he's been off immunosuppressants for a while. If he is, the good news is, they can give him a boost of stem cells from the donor. The bad news about that though, is that this hospital has never done this procedure before AND that Jacob's graft versus host could flare back up, starting us over from almost square one. So as you can see, we have ups and downs almost on a daily basis and it's very emotionally exhausting. I get scared to get hopeful any more because every time I do, we get more bad news. Ethan starts kindergarten on August 8th and I feel so bad I'm missing out on so much of his life lately, that weighs me down with guilt. I see him only 3 days a week and there is no end of this situation in sight. There's really nothing more I can do though. We are managing the situation the best we can with the help and support of loved ones. It's just taking way longer than we ever imagined. A lot of people ask if we are getting any idea of when Jacob will be able to go home, and the answer to that is: nobody knows.

Day +75 Two Steps Forward, Three Steps Back

2011-06-28T23:02:00.000-07:00

When all of this began, I never imagined we'd see July in the hospital, but here we are with July right around the corner and no end in sight. The past 10 days have been filled with a lot of ups and downs. Last Monday Jacob threw up his NJ tube so he had another one placed on Wednesday. He almost made it a week with that one, but threw it up this morning. He has been more willing to eat and take his oral medicines today since the tube came out. He understands that if he doesn't eat, drink, and take his medicines, then we have to put in another tube and for now that seems to be all the encouragement that he needs. He certainly looks a lot more comfortable without that tube taped across his face. I just hope he can get all the nutrition, fluids, and medication that he needs to be healthy.

This past Sunday was a really rough day for Jacob. He had tachycardia (an elevated heart rate), and high potassium (which can cause cardiac arrest) for which he had to take a terrible medication to cleanse it from the body, causing him to vomit and have terrible diarrhea all throughout the day and night. All of his numbers were off too, indicating that there were other problems going on. His stool and vomit were coming back positive for blood as well. Doctors decided to give him a blood transfusion since his hemoglobin was trending down anyway. After a restless night Sunday, Jacob didn't wake up until nearly noon on Monday. Luckily, he seemed to be back to his happy self again and the symptoms from the previous day seemed to clear... or so we thought. Although he continued happy throughout Tuesday, a couple of tests came back with bad news. First of all, we found out that he has an infection in one of the lumens of his central line (the lumens are the two tubes hanging down from the central line placed in his chest, and the IV is attached to one of the lumens), so he started on an additional antibiotic for that. Next, we found out that he tested positive for C. diff, a problem with the bad bacteria taking over the good bacteria in the gut. He is taking Flagyl four times a day, and unfortunately, it tastes really gross and without his tube in, he has to get it down on his own. C. diff is contagious so now we have to take extra precautions in and out of his room.

Other news we got last week that was terribly discouraging was that it appeared that he might be losing his graft. All the donor cells that tested so high in his body a month ago had dropped, some of them dramatically. The doctor ordered an NBT (nitroblue tetrazolium) test to see if his CGD was still cured despite the drop in donor cells. We got the results today and thankfully he still has 60% functionality of working neutrophils, which is enough to protect him from CGD-related infections. According to his doctors, he only needs about 10% donor cells to be protected, so 60% is plenty. However, this loss of donor cells did concern the doctors enough that they are weaning Jacob off of his immunosuppressant, afraid that it might be too weakening to the donor cells. As he comes off of that drug, hopefully his chimerism of donor cells will increase, or at least not drop any more. There is a chance of graft vs. host flare-ups while coming off of the immunosuppressant, but it's something that needs to be done to protect the graft. I would feel terrible if we lost the graft and put Jacob and our family through this ordeal for nothing.

There have certainly been more bumps in the road throughout this process than I ever imagined beforehand. We thought for sure that Jacob would be home by now, but with one problem arising after another, the doctors still can't say when he will be safe to leave. Thank you for your continued thoughts and prayers.

Day +65 NJ Tube & Happy Father's Day

2011-06-19T18:04:00.000-07:00

Since Jacob's NJ tube placement last week, he has gradually increased through the minimum dose of Pedialyte to the maximum, and then switched over to diluted formula and is now on full strength formula. He has tolerated the nutrition well, which has been a blessing. We struggled a little with medication through the tube at first because he kept vomiting afterwards even though it was being inserted all the way down in his intestines. We have found that if we slightly warm up his medications and water and do his medications very slowly, he doesn't throw up. Jacob is taking all but two medications through his tube now, so once we get those last two switched over and the doctors are happy with the levels of those medications in his body, we will hopefully be discharged. He is getting formula continuously through his tube, but the doctor wants to try increasing the amount of formula so we can take breaks off the tube sometimes. The formula seems to have helped resolve his diarrhea and has even triggered an awareness to eat again. It's not a lot, but at least he will eat a couple of crackers or something each day. We are grateful for everyone's continued prayers for Jacob's complete healing. We still have a long way to go with him, but feel like he is slowly making progress. We will get the results on another chimerism test this week to see how the new marrow is doing. We are hoping that it is thriving!

Josh was able to spend Father's Day at home with Ethan and they got together with extended family for dinner today. I'm grateful for my husband who is a terrific and loving father, for my own incredible dad who has taught me so many things throughout my life, and for my amazing father-in-law who is so kind and helpful. I love these men so much and am grateful to have them in my life.

Other good news:

*Ethan's transfer request to go to school where Josh's mom teaches got approved! It is also where Josh and his younger brother attended elementary school. We are so excited! He starts kindergarten on August 8th, I believe.

*Last week I got to witness the birth of my cute little nephew Colin! It was an amazing experience and I'm thankful that my little sis' invited me to be present for it.

Happy Birthday, Jacob!

2011-06-14T14:10:00.000-07:00

Jacob playing with his new toys

Jacob is showing how old he is now.

He says this is harder than two fingers.

He is really concentrating.

Jacob is delighted to frost his cake with Ethan!

(Too bad he wouldn't eat any of it.)

Putting on the finishing touches!

We celebrated Jacob's 3rd birthday in the hospital and I think he had a fun time. I was in the room with Jacob, and Josh was outside the room with Ethan. Josh wiped off gifts to get ready to be in Jacob's room and Ethan had the job of handing them to Jacob. After gifts, the boys decorated a birthday cake in the doorway. Jacob had a lot of fun and as I was putting him to bed that night, he told me "I want to go home." We really miss being all together as this process continues to drag on.

Yesterday Jacob had the NJ tube placed. It passed the test of not coming up when he vomited, like the NG tube did. After some complications with the tube kinking inside of Jacob, we finally got it working this morning and now Jacob is getting pedialyte through it. He's starting with only 1 teaspoon/hour to see how he tolerates it, and then it will gradually increase. He is still getting hydration through his central line until he is getting the proper amount of nutrition through his tube. Jacob is still getting used to having a tube taped to his face, but at least he hasn't tried pulling it out. He does seem sad about it though, which breaks my heart. He has barely said anything or smiled at all these past two days. I really wish he could have his big brother here with him. Ethan really seems to brighten Jacob's day the most.

Day +49 Possible Virus

2011-06-03T12:50:00.000-07:00

The boys send each other a hug since they can't touch.

Say cheeeeeese!

Jacob's CT scan result came back that his lungs are clear! In fact, the problem that was identified 3 weeks ago has been resolved. By process of elimination, the doctor suspects he has a virus and that there is not much we can do for him. He is already taking antiviral medication, so that is about all they can do. Jacob is still coughing so hard that it makes him vomit. His appetite is non existent, so it's really hard to get him to eat anything. It sounds like the doctor is just waiting for him to start eating again before he can go home. She wants to try a different type of feeding tube called an NJ tube since Jacob threw up his NG tube two days ago when we tried that solution. The NJ tube goes down past the stomach and into the intestine a bit in order to keep it down even when he's coughing and throwing up. We will try the NG tube a couple more times next week before we resort to the NJ tube. I'm not comfortable taking him home yet, so I'm glad he is still here under professional care. His ANC has dropped really low as well, down to 440.

Dropping ANC and white blood cells

2011-05-31T15:20:00.000-07:00

Sorry for the delay in posting an update. It’s easy to share joyful news, but hard to share our setbacks. Jacob’s GVH rash is pretty much gone, which is our good news. Now onto the bad news. Jacob is learning to take his oral medications. Some times he gets it down and keeps it down, other times we are not so lucky. Jacob is not interested in eating yet and he always falls far below our goal for liquid and caloric intake. Two nights ago Jacob’s cough started getting worse and his anc and white blood cell count have been dropping steadily the past five days. Six days ago his anc was 2580 and today it is 580. These symptoms are concerning to the doctor and ourselves because he seems to be fighting something. He hasn’t had any fever and his lungs sound clear, which could lead us back to the silent and sneaky fungal infection that the doctor suspected a couple of weeks ago. Jacob is getting a repeat CT scan today to see if the lung inflammation has gotten worse. If there are any large areas of inflammation, Jacob may have to get another lung biopsy to see if the doctors can identify the problem and treat it more specifically. He also had another sinus rinse this morning to see if they can identify a problem there.

Day +33 Functioning Neutrophils!

2011-05-18T10:51:00.000-07:00

We got some great news yesterday. The cell that was functioning at 0% in Jacob’s old immune system, called a neutrophil, is now functioning at 96%. That means the donor’s cells are working in Jacob’s body! Other news we got was that 78% of Jacob’s cells are donor cells and 22% are his old. The donor’s percentage should continue to grow as it takes over Jacob’s weaker cells. In 6 months or so it could reach 100%. That is what we are hoping for. The doctor sent off a test today to find out what types of cells are left of Jacob’s. That will take some time to come back.

Jacob was supposed to start taking an appetite increaser medication yesterday, but was unable to swallow any. Oral medications are going to be a huge challenge. How do you get a three-year-old to willingly take yucky medication? We are going to try a sticker chart today. We may never get out of here if he can’t learn to swallow his medications. We are not completely opposed to trying an NG tube, so we will see. An appetite increaser would be great because he would then be allowed to come off of iv nutrition; one step closer to coming home. But for now, he might not be getting enough calories and the doctor might order him an actual increase in iv nutrition a couple times a week.

On Monday Jacob had a chest CT scan to investigate the cause of his persistent cough. Originally, Jacob was supposed to be sedated, but he did so well, they let him stay awake. He squeezed his eyes shut tight and I was able to stay right next to him and touch his legs and talk to him the whole time. I couldn't help but get choked up watching his sweet little face. I’m so proud of my little man for being so brave for something that was scary. Just as the doctor suspected, Jacob had swollen lymphnodes throughout his lungs. Jacob had a lung biopsy before starting his bone marrow transplant, and the biopsy came back normal; however, fungal infections are hard to detect and frequently sneak through undetected. The doctor figures that the swollen lymphnodes found before the bmt were in fact a fungal infection and now it has spread. We are hoping that his new functioning cells, along with the antifungal medication that he is on, will take care of the problem, but it is definitely a concern. The new cells could go overboard attacking the fungus and end up causing pneumonia. We are keeping a close eye on any new symptoms and Jacob will get a followup CT scan down the road to make sure the infection is not getting any worse.

Another Difficult Day

2011-05-13T23:57:00.000-07:00

Jacob has just had two rough days in a row. As Kylene mentioned, Jacob threw up 6 times yesterday while I was at the hospital with him. This morning things seemed better at first: very little coughing and no vomiting, and he hadn't vomited at all while he was sleeping last night. Later today, however, the vomiting returned (4 times). He had a fever tonight before I left: 100.2° F (37.9° C), which is a mere 0.1° C (0.2° F) below what they consider to be a fever spike. When I spoke with the doctor on Thursday afternoon she said that if Jacob started spiking a fever it would be cause for concern and they would have to reevaluate his situation, so hopefully the main BMT doctors will take the fever into consideration when they discuss Jacob's situation in the morning. I just called the nurse, and she said that the fever has gone down and that the resident instructed her to only do further tests if his temperature reaches exactly 38.0° C or higher, as per their usual procedure.

Since the CT scan couldn't be done until Monday, Jacob had to get X-rays this morning to see if any problems could be identified before Monday. We don't know whether the doctor had a chance to analyze the X-rays yet, but I'll discuss it with the doctor in the morning.

Since Jacob's hemoglobin and hematocrit were low this morning, he received a blood transfusion. Thanks again to all those who have donated blood or platelets, or have tried to donate, or have wished they could but live too far away. If you missed Kylene's mention of it a couple blog posts ago, she said that Jacob does not need platelets at this time, but he may still need blood. Little did we know that he would need blood again so soon—today! If you have O+ blood, you can donate whole blood at Children's Hospital Los Angeles specifically for Jacob. After scheduling a time to donate, please sign up on our calendar. Here's the link.

We have a lot of questions right now; I literally have over a dozen questions to ask the doctor in the morning. We don't even know for sure why Jacob has started coughing and vomiting. A couple of theories have been floated, but no definitive conclusions have been reached yet. Jacob is on an additional medication today and restarted another medication to hopefully help reduce vomiting, but both medications are more about controlling the symptoms rather than curing an underlying problem. Kylene and I are very concerned about Jacob's health right now, and we hope we get some answers soon (and that the problems are curable).

This is a very difficult time for all of us, so we humbly ask that you please keep Jacob and our family in your prayers. We greatly appreciate your love and support.

Four Weeks Post Transplant

2011-05-13T09:50:00.000-07:00

I can't believe how quickly Jacob's condition can change from one day to the next, in this case for the worse. On Wednesday evening, Jacob started coughing and then threw up. It was strange because he hasn't thrown up for a long time, but an isolated incident didn't seem to be much of a concern, although I did notice his appetite was nearly gone that day. He did mention a couple of times that his tummy hurt, but I thought it might've been from not eating for so long and then starting up again. Yesterday, the coughing continued and he threw up six times by the time Josh had to leave last night. His doctor is concerned that it might be a fungal infection, since those are the hardest to detect and clear up. The doctor ordered a sedation and a CT scan to check for a fungal infection which will probably take place Monday. The doctor thinks his enlarged lymphnodes that he had biopsied in February may in fact have been an infection, but slipped through undetected. Please continue to pray for Jacob. My heart is breaking. It seems like just when things start looking hopeful for Jacob we have a major set back. All Jacob's numbers are down today. ANC 1310, platelets 159, white blood cells 1.92, hemoglobin 8.6. Sorry to share depressing news, but we need to rally our faith and prayers in Jacob's behalf. I've seen the power of prayer work in the past.

Day +27

2011-05-12T14:42:00.000-07:00

Here are pictures from Ethan's visit last week:

Jacob's ANC really jumped high this week, all the way to 1800. Part of that was the steroid treatment he had to receive for his rash. They are now lowering his steroid and his ANC is 1770, which we're still happy with. His white blood cells are growing and his platelets are almost at 200! For our donors signed up for the rest of May, Jacob most likely won't need platelets, but other children at the hospital will definitely benefit if you still want to come in. If anything, Jacob may need whole blood from time to time. Other exciting progress for Jacob this week is that he is allowed to eat milk products again since his ANC is so high. Jacob was excited with his new food choices at first and was happy to eat yogurt, cheese pizza, Cheetos, quesadillas, string cheese, etc, but these past couple of days, the excitement has worn off and he's not eating so well again. However, the doctors still have been tapering Jacob's TPN, first from 24 hrs to 18 hrs, then to 12 hrs just at night, and now they are going to take off the lipid portion of the TPN. Hopefully this increases his appetite and desire to eat.

Yesterday blood was taken to test which bone marrow is growing. Last week they told us they would wait until the 16th to run that test, but for some reason decided to do it this week. The test is high tech and will take several days to get results back.

The adenovirus which Jacob has been receiving a weekly treatment for, is now coming back negative! This is good news and Jacob will not have to get the treatment this week. The medicine for adenovirus is very toxic to the kidneys and the oral medication that he's supposed to take along with it to protect his kidneys is very bitter and makes him gag and throw up. So we were very happy to hear that he is off the treatment for now unless they find the virus in his blood again.

For the first time ever in the hospital, Jacob actually enjoyed his bath yesterday. He sat down and played and splashed water all around. That was short lived though because Josh said today he didn't like his bath again. Oh well, baby steps.

Day +21

2011-05-06T09:43:00.000-07:00

Additional information we found out since our last post: Since Jacob had reduced intensity chemotherapy, the doctors will wait until 30 days post transplant to test to see which marrow is growing. That puts us on May 15th. Also, the doctors increased Jacob's steroid dose to get his rash under control. The steroids caused Jacob's numbers to skyrocket yesterday and today. His ANC is 950 and his white blood cell count is 1.28. His platelets are 120 and his Hemoglobin is 11.5. These numbers would be cause to rejoice, but I think they are artificially high because of the steroids. But still, I'm happy to see them go up each day! :)

Day +18 ANC

2011-05-03T09:53:00.000-07:00

Jacob now has enough white blood cells to start calculating his ANC. A normal ANC is 2000-3000; however, since Jacob received chemotherapy and radiation, his ANC will most likely not reach normal until maybe a year from now. The goal is for him to get over 500. Right now he is at 210, same as yesterday. The ANC is a calculation of Jacob's white blood cell count (WBC), Polys, and Bands, (all components of the immune system) so it shows an overall reflection of how Jacob's immune system is doing. So each day when I get here in the morning, I like to find out what Jacob's ANC is to get an idea of how his immune system is progressing. Once Jacob goes over 500, hopefully by next week, he will be tested to see which bone marrow is growing- the donor's or his old marrow. We hope that it will be the donor's.

Jacob's WBC is .58 and the normal count is 3.5-10.9. White blood cells protect the body from bacteria, viruses, and fungi and help to strengthen the immune system. They go after the germs and eat them up!

Jacob's hair has been thinning since last Friday. I asked if we could shave his head to keep him from getting hair in his eyes, nose, and mouth, and all over his clothes and bed, but they said it would be too dangerous. Because Jacob's immune system is so weak, even the smallest little nick could cause a serious infection, so it is not worth the risk.

Jacob still has no appetite and has developed really bad incontinence. His bottom is so sore that last night the nurse had to give him morphine just to wipe.

Other updates:

Jacob's mouth looks good- no sores.

The past couple of days he's been rashy all over the upper half of his body. Could be graft versus host, could just be the engraftment taking place, the doctors are thinking the latter. Yesterday we treated him with Benadryl. I don't know what they will decide today.

The sinus culture from last week came back negative for the viruses they tested. Not to say that it isn't a virus, but it's not the serious ones that they test for here. Thankfully, adenovirus had not moved to his respiratory system.

Jacob is passed the risk period for VOD, and so no longer has to take his daily oral med, so the doctors decided to wait on the NG tube.

So, in order to go home, Jacob has to switch from his IV meds to all oral, start eating again, and have an ANC over 500. This is all still going to take some time, but I'm glad that he is progressing in the right direction.

Day +14

2011-04-29T09:09:00.000-07:00

It's hard to believe it has been two weeks since Jacob's transplant. The past few days have been difficult. He has almost completely stopped eating and has to receive 24 hour nourishment through his iv. Again, the doctors aren't worried and say that this is completely normal at his stage of transplant. He is receiving the nourishment he needs to continue to heal.

Jacob has had a runny nose for the past week and we hope that it isn't anything serious. They did a sinus culture on him Wednesday and so we are waiting to hear back on the results of that. His nurse said sometimes children with low blood counts get runny noses, so hopefully it's just that. On the other hand, it could be the adinovirus that was discovered in his blood after his first round of chemo. He is still receiving a weekly treatment for the virus, but it is possible that it has moved to his respiratory system.

Other discouraging news is that Jacob has gotten worse with taking his oral medications, which are important for protecting his liver and kidneys from being damaged from all his other medications. He either throws it up, spits it out, and just holds it in his mouth until he cries and then it leaks out. Today the doctors are discussing inserting a tube through his nose that would go down into his stomach. This way he would get his oral medications without having to taste them. It may sound like a simple and practical solution, but the last time nurses tried inserting a nose tube (back in '09), it scared him to death, wouldn't go in, made his nose bleed, and ultimately failed to insert.

I can tell that Jacob has been feeling tired and a little down since Wednesday. I think his little body is fighting hard to begin grafting in the new marrow and it wipes him out. It has been a hard week and although I am at home with Ethan today and tomorrow, my heart and mind are still at the hospital with Jacob. I know Josh will be exhausted after we trade off again Saturday night.

Thank you for your continued prayers and for all those who have donated blood and platelets and for those who have wanted to and for everyone who has served our family in other ways. We feel of your love and concern and know we are extremely blessed.

Platelets and Blood This Week

2011-04-26T10:52:00.000-07:00

The latest word from the doctors is that Jacob will probably need blood and platelets this week. They won't transfuse today, but his counts are getting low so they may give him a transfusion as soon as tomorrow. Looking at the platelet calendar, it appears that Jacob should have a sufficient supply of blood and platelets throughout this week, for which we are very grateful.

So far, however, the May platelet donation calendar is pretty bare, and May starts on Sunday. As of right now, nobody is signed up for the first two weeks of May, and Jacob might need platelets or blood during that time. Please go to our calendar and sign up to donate platelets. Since many donors are only available to donate on weekends, please try to donate mid-week if possible. This will help spread out platelet donations, which is important; remember that platelets only have a shelf life of 4-5 days.

Thanks as always to all those who have been supportive of our family through prayers, platelet and blood donations, and helping or offering to help in other ways.

Hospital Life

2011-04-20T12:50:00.000-07:00

Jacob is chowing down on a bag of pretzels as I write this. He is doing great for a post-BMT patient. His immune system is very weak, practically non existent, so he has to stay in isolation throughout recovery, which is normal. His blood count numbers continue to drop, which is also normal. They will continue to drop for the next couple of weeks, and then should slowly start to come up. When they get to a certain level, Jacob is safe to go home. His immune system won't be fully recovered for 6 months to a year, so we will have to continue to be very careful about germs. His nurse on Sunday said you'd never know he just had a bone marrow transplant as he was energetic and playful throughout the day. He still has his hair for now and he hasn't developed any mouth sores. He also hasn't been nauseous since transplant day and the following day, which has been good because he can eat, which most bmt patients won't do. Jacob is receiving 12 hours of nutrition through his iv to fill in any gaps in his diet.

The hardest part right now is just waiting, waiting, and more waiting. Being in a hospital room for 14 hours/day and wearing all the isolation gear gets tedious, but I'm glad Jacob doesn't seem to mind being here. We watch a lot of cartoons because I run out of play ideas. I am finishing my fourth day in a row at the hospital and will be trading off with Josh tonight. I am looking forward to spending time with Ethan, who has been so amazing through all of this chaos in his life. It will be so wonderful to have our family back together again at the end of all of this. I miss that the most.

We have been greatly blessed in so many ways throughout this process. Thanks to everyone who is donating blood and platelets for Jacob, and for those of you coordinating efforts. You are an amazing blessing to him and our family and we are so grateful. It has been a humbling experience for us to be in this type of situation and we have been so touched by your charity. We can't thank you enough.

Platelet Donation Calendar

2011-04-16T21:04:00.000-07:00

First here's an update to Kylene's blog post from earlier today. Although Jacob's was in goods spirits throughout the day, he began the day with not much of an appetite and was unable to keep any food down until the evening. Jacob was willing to entertain the idea of eating and even asked for specific things, but when it came to actually eating he had a hard time taking any bites. He only ate a bite or two at breakfast and one bite at lunch, and both times he threw up shortly after eating. According to the dietician who came to check on him earlier, this is pretty normal after a bone marrow transplant. If Jacob doesn't start eating and keeping food down consistently, they will put him on intravenous nutrition until he improves. I'm happy to report that Jacob did great with eating his dinner tonight (his appetite seems to have returned) and he didn't throw up even after his "yucky" oral medicine and mouth cleaning, so hopefully the eating and vomiting problems have passed.

I have created a platelet donation calendar on Google Docs. Anyone can edit it and add themselves to the calendar. To avoid confusion, the calendar is for platelets only, not whole blood donations. Platelets have a very short shelf life (4-5 days) so it is important that platelet donations are spread out. You can donate platelets regardless of your blood type. Please make sure you qualify to donate, and schedule with the donation center at (323) 361-2441 before putting your name on the calendar.

If you have type O- or O+ blood you can make a whole blood donation specifically for Jacob. Whole blood has a shelf life of 3-5 weeks, and an individual can donate whole blood again 8 weeks after the last whole blood donation. Rather than having a second calendar, please just let Josh and Kylene know when you're donating whole blood and we can give you further information on how to ensure that the donation will be reserved specifically for Jacob.

Thanks to all of you who have been keeping Jacob in your prayers and have been willing to donate blood and platelets.

A New Beginning

2011-04-16T10:21:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was a new birthday for Jacob. His new bone marrow dripped in through his i.v. over the course of 8 hours. All of his vitals look good and he is happy today. Now it is a waiting game to see when the graft begins to take place and his body starts producing marrow on its own. We are praying he does not get graft versus host disease or develop any other complications. If things go smoothly, he should be able to come home in about 2 months, shortly after he turns 3.

Putting Jacob through two sessions of radiation treatment was tough yesterday. I couldn't help but second guess the decision we had made to go forward with this whole thing, but of course by this point we just had to keep going. The radiation made him nauseous and exhausted, so it was hard seeing him like that. By around 8:30 last night, he woke up hungry and happy, so he seems to have bounced back quickly.

We have been overwhelmed with the outpouring of volunteers willing to donate blood and platelets to Jacob! We never anticipated such a huge response. We are truly truly blessed and are so grateful for all willing volunteers and those who are working on coordinating efforts. Because the response has been so huge, Josh and I are working on a link to a googledocs calendar that we will link to from our blog that you can sign up on and see when others are donating. This way donors can be spaced out throughout Jacob's hospital stay and those precious donations don't go to waste. We are hoping to have it up by the end of the day. We love you and are deeply touched by how much people care and serve in time of need.

Day -3 Donate Platelets!!! [Updated x2]

2011-04-12T16:26:00.000-07:00

As I write this, Jacob is receiving a blood transfusion. The first of possibly many to come during the transplant process. I'm so grateful for people's goodness and generosity, for without blood donations, many innocent patients could not live. This is the second time in Jacob's life that he has needed blood, and it is probably not his last. As I learn more about Jacob's procedure, I now understand that not only are blood donations vitally needed for these little ones to make it through, but platelets as well. I was just informed that the hospital's platelet supply is extremely low. My nurse even commented that it is "scary." I know many of you are praying for Jacob and have wondered what else you can do to offer your help and love... Jacob, as well as other children going through chemo on our floor need platelets to live. Please call Children's Hospital LA at (323) 361-2441 for questions or appointments concerning platelet and/or blood donations. This is a very real way to put your good intentions to good deeds. You can donate directly to a bank for Jacob if you specify.

The Fludarabine chemotherapy that Jacob has received yesterday, today, and will receive tomorrow has thankfully not caused any outwardly discomfort for Jacob. He is still eating well and has not had any fevers or chills with it. I am so grateful for this as I was anticipating nausea and vomiting with Fludarabine. I can't believe we are three days away from transplant. This morning he started on an immunosuppressant drug that will prevent his body from attacking his new marrow.

I was informed yesterday that he will receive both radiation treatments on the same day, five hours apart. Because of doubling his dose (see our previous post), he may experience hair loss and mouth sores afterall. He is receiving 400 centigray in one day and the maximum amount of radiation allowed for a person is 450, so he will nearly be at the max.

UPDATE, April 13th: Josh called the CHLA blood donation number to get more specific information about who can donate to Jacob based on their blood types, and how often an individual can donate.

If you have either O- or O+ blood, you can make whole blood donations that Jacob could use. Please note that whole blood has a limited shelf life (3-5 weeks). An individual may make a whole blood donation once every 8 weeks.

If you have ~~A-, A+, AB-, or AB+ blood~~ any blood type, you can make platelet donations that Jacob could use. (We've gotten several different answers, but on April 15th we finally got clarification that blood type does not matter for platelet donations at Children's Hospital.) Please note that platelets have a very short shelf life (up to 5 days). An individual may donate platelets as often as every 3 days, but CHLA recommends waiting longer in between platelet donations (the American Red Cross suggests once every 7 days).

For further details on whether you would be a good candidate to donate blood or platelets, please call CHLA's blood donation center at (323) 361-2441.

Day -6: Lingering Lymphocytes

2011-04-09T16:47:00.000-07:00

Kylene is at home with Ethan today, and she has been getting started moving things out of storage and into our new rental home. Meanwhile, I'm on hospital duty for the weekend.

The other day a test and retest seemed to indicate that Jacob's heart might be enlarged. A doctor doing rounds this morning told me that the results of a more accurate test came back and his heart is apparently not enlarged after all. She commented that she noticed the hole in the top hinges of his heart, which had been discovered previously. I believe we mentioned before on the blog that while it sounds scary, a hole in the top hinges is usually not a problem, but Jacob will probably have annual visits with a cardiologist just to be sure his heart is working properly.

A little later this morning, one of the BMT doctors came to speak with me. He said that the quantitative test results on the adenovirus levels came back, and thankfully the level was so low that it didn't even register (the test only gives a result if the count is greater than 100). This was the good news. The bad news was that Jacob still has lymphocytes (a type of white blood cell, one of the body's defensive cells) in his blood, meaning that the Campath unfortunately did not eradicate them entirely. Prior to receiving a bone marrow transplant, all lymphocytes must be destroyed to ensure that the body does not attack the new cells. The doctor explained that the only way to effectively resolve this problem is to give Jacob an extra 200 cGy (200 centigray, also written as 2 Gy or gray) of radiation, ideally 5 hours apart from the 200 cGy they were already planning to give him on the transplant day, to kill the remaining lymphocytes. If the radiation oncologist prefers, the radiation treatments could be done a day apart, but the BMT doctor says two treatments 5 hours apart would be ideal. Four gray is a lot of radiation compared to X-rays or any natural exposure to radiation, but it's still pretty low compared to many types of radiation therapy.

As always, thank you for keeping Jacob in your prayers. Tomorrow (Sunday) we will be fasting for Jacob in addition to keeping him in our prayers throughout the day. You are welcome to join us in fasting for him, if you wish to. For more information on why and how we fast, you can go here and click on Additional Information, then read the sections titled "Purposes of Fasting" and "Fast Sunday," respectively.

More Information on Adenovirus

2011-04-08T07:23:00.000-07:00

Yesterday Kylene blogged that adenovirus was found in Jacob's blood, and that cidofovir (sigh-DOFF-o-veer) and probenecid are being used to treat it. I did a little research to see what I could find out about the potential effects of adenovirus, particularly in immunocompromised patients, and the effectiveness of cidofovir against it.

Adenovirus is very common in young children; healthy children with active T cells typically just get cold- or flu-like symptoms, and after the body suppresses the virus, the symptoms subside indefinitely. It's very likely that Jacob had adenovirus in his body prior to hospitalization, but his T cells had been suppressing it, making it undetectable. The Campath chemotherapy on Tuesday wiped out Jacob's T cells, which caused the virus to become active, hence the detection on Thursday.

Potential symptoms of acute adenovirus infection include fever, runny nose, cough, sore throat, rattling sounds when breathing, discoloration of urine and presence of blood in urine, and other symptoms similar to those of pink eye, flu, and pneumonia. As of when I talked to Kylene this morning, she has not observed these symptoms in Jacob. In extreme cases where immunocompromised patients are not treated or when treatment of adenoviral infection is ineffective, it can even result in death.

Based on what I've read, Jacob's cidofovir treatment will likely suppress adenovirus and make it undetectable again until his new immune system can suppress it sometime after transplantation. However, as Kylene indicated in her previous post, cidofovir is not always effective against adenovirus. In my research I discovered that in a 2002 retrospective study, cidofovir was effective in about 75% of patients with adenovirus infections (31 out of 41 patients) who did not die of unrelated complications, although it should be noted that the severity of the infection and the dosage and length of cidofovir treatment varied. Of the 16 patients in the study with asymptomatic infections, 4 died of unrelated causes, and of the remaining 12 patients, 10 of them (83%) were treated successfully. One of the two who was not treated successfully "relapsed with adenovirus after discontinuation of cidofovir. The patient was not retreated and died of disseminated adenovirus disease." Forty percent of the 45 patients in the study developed toxicity, usually in the kidneys, so that's something we'll need to watch for. Note that the sample in this study is small, but the overall success rate of suppressing adenovirus is promising.

Day -8

2011-04-07T17:09:00.000-07:00

Today adenovirus was discovered in Jacob's blood. This is scary because the first round of chemo wiped out his T cells, which are needed to fight the virus. His doctor ordered cidofovir and probenecid to hopefully wipe out the virus. He said patients normally respond well to this treatment, but it is not 100% successful. We are going forward with transplant because he already had chemo and so now it is too late to go back. We are staying hopeful that the medicine will work.

Also, an EKG was done today which came back indicating that the right side of his heart was enlarged. This triggered an order for an echo cardiogram and a repeat of the EKG, hoping that the first reading was a mistake. We are waiting to hear back on that.

Jacob had an eye exam today as well. For once, his test results came back normal!

I have a laptop set up in Jacob's room now, so we can stay in better contact with everyone. We can also Skype. For family members and close friends, if you are interested in visiting Jacob, this would be the best week to do it since his chemo resumes on Monday. He looks like he is feeling well and loves to play. Just remember, except for grandparents, you can only play with him through the plastic curtain.

First Day of Chemotherapy

2011-04-05T19:10:00.000-07:00

Jacob was admitted to Children's Hospital on Monday evening. We had to wait all day for his room to become available, so Kylene and I had plenty of time to get packed, drive out to L.A., check into the Ronald McDonald House, and have dinner with Jacob at the CHLA cafeteria prior to taking him to the clean room where he'll be living for the next two months or more. Kylene and I have been busy putting up laminated pictures of family, Jesus, temples, Disney and Pixar characters, and other things he likes, and we've also been carefully cleaning his toys, books, and movies so they'll be safe for him to have in his room.

Jacob had his Campath chemotherapy treatment today. It was administered over 6 hours to reduce side effects, but he did vomit a few times and had a fever for a little while. His temperature was back to normal the last time his nurse checked it. Jacob will be off chemotherapy for five days and then will start on a different chemo drug. Jacob is taking a long and much-needed nap after a very late night last night and an early morning today. Kylene also got to go back to our room at the Ronald McDonald House for a nap while I have been hanging out here at the hospital in case Jacob wakes up and needs one of us.

Last night we got Skype working on my iPhone so Jacob could see and talk to Ethan and my parents. Today Ethan is with Kylene's parents and got to go to the zoo with them. Depending on if and when Jacob wakes up from his nap (he might be out for the night!), we might see if we can do Skype again tonight while Ethan stays at Kylene's parents' house.

Blessings in the Midst of Trials

2011-03-30T06:00:00.000-07:00

What an incredible series of events.

As Kylene mentioned recently, Jacob's donor had to reschedule the bone marrow transplant date, pushing Jacob's hospital admittance and chemo start date back a bit. We got a call on Monday from a Children's Hospital Los Angeles nurse to let us know that they were switching Jacob's chemotherapy treatment to a "Genetic Disease Unrelated Donor-Reduced Intensity for children less than 40kg," "a protocol from Seattle" that is supposed to have reduced side effects compared to the treatment they were planning to give him. I wasn't able to find anything about this online, so when I e-mailed the nurse for more information she replied that one of the CHLA BMT doctors we've worked with "is the guiding force for us using this protocol. She had heard the presentation of the protocol and its results in February at the ASBMT meeting." Jacob will apparently be the second patient at CHLA to receive this reduced side effect chemo and radiation treatment.

Also on Monday, the president of Northcentral University (where I'm earning my Ph.D.) e-mailed the student body about a new academic leave of absence policy allowing students experiencing hardships to take up to 90 days leave from school, and this policy will take effect next Monday, April 4th—incredibly, the same date as Jacob's admission to the hospital. A little over a month ago, just prior to the start of my current class, I had asked my academic advisor if there was any way that I could take a leave of absence during Jacob's two or more months in the hospital, but at the time the best the university could offer was a three-week break in between classes, which would not have helped at all since my class started on February 28th. Now, after receiving this e-mail about the new policy, I replied to the university president and my academic advisor and asked if there was any way that I could take a leave beginning on the date of the new policy, explaining that it was also my son's admission date. I was concerned that my request would be denied since I'm already in the middle of a class. However, I was excited to receive a reply from my advisor on Tuesday stating that he had spoken with the university's academic liaison and that she would approve the leave if I submit a request on Monday.

Recently we have looked at a couple of homes to try to find a place we can live on a more permanent basis after Jacob is out of the hospital (for now we are staying with my parents so they can help with Ethan). As Kylene already mentioned, last week we looked at a house in Alta Loma that seemed to be perfect for our needs in terms of the monthly rent price, cleanliness (which will be important when Jacob is out of the hospital since his immune system will be weak for a year after the BMT), neighborhood, and number of rooms. I received a call on Tuesday from the owner of the house, and he offered to let us rent it. We will meet with him on Thursday to sign the papers and get the keys! It will be nice to take our things out of storage and gradually start setting up our new home.

While some might view these as a series of coincidental occurrences that by random chance happened to work out for our benefit, we know better. =) We know that God is mindful of our needs and the trials that we are facing, and we see these blessings as evidence of the eternal love that He, our Heavenly Father, has for His children. No matter what happens in the coming months, even if things don't work out the way that we hope, we know that we can place our trust in our Heavenly Father's will and know that He has a plan for each of us.

I know that many of you who are praying for and thinking about our family come from a wide variety of spiritual or religious backgrounds. I would like to share with you an experience of a leader of our church when he was in the midst of extreme trials and persecution in March 1839—172 years ago this month. He struggled to know why he and others were having to endure seemingly unending and grievous afflictions. In humility he prayed and pleaded for deliverance, and in answer to his prayer he received a revelation, an excerpt of which follows (emphasis mine):

If thou art accused with all manner of false accusations; if thine enemies fall upon thee; if they tear thee from the society of thy father and mother and brethren and sisters; and if with a drawn sword thine enemies tear thee from the bosom of thy wife, and of thine offspring, and thine elder son, although but six years of age, shall cling to thy garments, and shall say, My father, my father, why can’t you stay with us? O, my father, what are the men going to do with you? and if then he shall be thrust from thee by the sword, and thou be dragged to prison, and thine enemies prowl around thee like wolves for the blood of the lamb;

And if thou shouldst be cast into the pit, or into the hands of murderers, and the sentence of death passed upon thee; if thou be cast into the deep; if the billowing surge conspire against thee; if fierce winds become thine enemy; if the heavens gather blackness, and all the elements combine to hedge up the way; and above all, if the very jaws of hell shall gape open the mouth wide after thee, know thou, my son, that all these things shall give thee experience, and shall be for thy good.

The Son of Man hath descended below them all. Art thou greater than he?

As always, we are so thankful to each of you for keeping Jacob and our family in your thoughts and prayers. We feel the love and concern you have for us, and we wish we could adequately express our deep gratitude for your kindness and loving support.

Happy Boys

2011-03-26T13:50:00.000-07:00

We are down to less than a week now until he gets his line put in. Jacob had 14 vials of blood drawn yesterday. Always a traumatizing event for both Jacob and myself. After the hematologist pulled out the needle and put on his bandaid, Jacob told him "thank you." He melts my heart. One of the tests was Jacob's sed rate (inflammation), which has dropped from 48 over two weeks ago, to 7 yesterday. The steroid treatment seems to have worked and he is back in the normal range (0-10)! This is wonderful news!

I am impressed with how well Ethan has adjusted to having a chronically sick brother. He doesn't get jealous, but rather is very protective of and loving toward his brother. Still I can't help but feel guilty with how much Ethan misses out on because of us trying to keep Jacob from getting sick. We have decided to pull him out of preschool next week and let him do home schooling with grandpa on the days I am at the hospital, and with me on the days that Josh is on duty. He will miss out on the social interactions with children his age, so if anyone wants to do play dates, let me know! I am excited for him to start kindergarten this August.

Other exciting news: yesterday we turned in an application on a rental home! It is a 4 bed, 2 bath single story home. I don't know how long it'll be before we move, but hopefully we are approved and can secure the home. The location is great, right at the end of a cul-de-sac, and it will allow Ethan to be in the Alta Loma School District, which we were also hoping for.

Rescheduled Dates & Wedding Photos

2011-03-20T10:02:00.000-07:00

We had so much fun last night at Josh's brother's wedding! We are so glad that we were able to celebrate with them and not be in the hospital on their special day. Ethan and Jacob had a blast on the dance floor. I haven't seen Jacob that wild in, well... ever, actually. He was so funny! Based on his behavior, I dare say he is feeling great. I have a feeling his next blood test will show that his inflammation has calmed way down. We go in this week, so we will see. Anyway, our new admittance date is April 4th and our transplant date is April 15th. Our donor needed to reschedule, so we are happy to comply. We are staying flexible and as for me, I am just enjoying these last couple weeks of having my family together. Please continue to keep our family in your prayers. They lift our spirits and keep us going each day.

New Dates

2011-03-11T16:08:00.001-08:00

Jacob's official results on his lung and colon biopsies came back normal! This is good news and means we can move forward with transplantation.

Jacob's sedimentation rate in his blood is 48 and a normal range is 0-10. This indicates inflammation in the body. He is currently taking a treatment of low dose corticosteroids. This is supposed to calm down the inflammation. We will retest his sed rate in about a week and a half. New admission and transplant dates have been scheduled. He is to be admitted to Children's on March 31st, begin his chemo conditioning, and then receive his new bone marrow on April 11th. After that we are looking at a 2 month recovery (at least), which means he will most likely spend his 3rd birthday in the hospital.

We are currently waiting to hear on a date to have his line surgically put in before his admittance date. Josh and I will have to learn how to flush the line and care for it, which makes me nervous.

Jacob used to be a good medicine taker, but has developed an aversion to taking his meds since we've had to introduce a couple of new ones to his regimen this week. I am finding creative ways to get Jacob to take his new medicines, including hiding it in smoothies, yogurt, or even in his morning bowl of Cheerios. Life will be interesting when he gets out of the hospital and will be taking 10-12 different medications. Anyway, things are moving along and Jacob seems to be doing well at the moment, for which we are grateful.

The Next Step

2011-03-05T08:48:00.000-08:00

I spoke to the BMT coordinator for Children's Hospital yesterday and she said Jacob's doctors want to postpone transplant for one month while Jacob takes a steroid treatment to calm down his colitis. She said it would be dangerous to do a transplant when there is inflammation anywhere in the body because the new transplanted white blood cells would go directly to the inflamed site and "go crazy" as she put it... That sounds like a bad thing. So for now we are waiting for the redness around his surgery incisions to clear up and then he will start on prednisone. In two weeks, his sedimentation rate (which is a blood test that reveals inflammation in the body) will be retested. Thankfully our donor is fine with waiting. Our coordinator will call us when she has new admittance dates for Jacob.

So far the lung biopsy has been negative for infection. (Yay!) We should hear back on the biopsy culture next week.

Hospital Stay & Cardiology Followup

2011-03-02T12:21:00.000-08:00

I can think of so many ways to describe Jacob. He is courageous, brave, kind, patient, long suffering, happy, resilient, caring, and so many other things. My two-year-old son is a good example to me of all of these characteristics. Watching him overcome trial after trial gives me strength and courage to take each day as it comes.

Monday he had an enlarged lymphnode surgically removed from his lung, and then had a colonoscopy on both ends. The lung biopsy required a drainage tube to be left in his side for about 24 hours to make sure he didn't get any swelling. The colonoscopy revealed that his colitis is back, not to the severity it was in '09, but nevertheless, his GI doctor may want to treat it with steroids again. Both procedures were successful, for which we are grateful. We got home yesterday evening and enjoyed sleeping in our own beds last night.

Today we had a followup with the cardiologist who determined that even with the small hole in Jacob's heart, his heart sounded good. He wants us to come in for an annual check up to make sure it doesn't get worse.

So, for now we are waiting to hear what the biopsy on the lymphnode reveals. If Jacob is indeed fighting some type of fungal infection, that will have to be treated and the bone marrow transplant will have to be put on hold. If it turns out to be benign, we will proceed with the BMT, depending on what the doctors decide to do about his colitis. They are in disagreement as to whether that needs to be treated first, or if the BMT is more urgent.

... One day at a time. We will post more when we hear the results of the biopsy.

We are grateful for everyone's continued faith and prayers in Jacob's behalf and have been touched by everyone's kind and encouraging words and deeds. We believe in the power of prayer and have felt added strength to get through each day.

Heart, Lung, Colon

2011-02-24T17:25:00.000-08:00

Today I heard back from Jacob's cardiologist with the results from his EKG and echocardiogram that he had on Monday. Apparently, Jacob has a hole in the top hinges of his heart. We are going in for a followup with the cardiologist as soon as they get it scheduled.

Also, Jacob's lung biopsy and colonoscopy/biopsy are going to be Monday. I'm glad they were able to coordinate the two procedures so that he will only have to go under anesthesia once.

Meanwhile, we are pretty much settled in with Josh's wonderful parents. They have already been so supportive and helpful and we feel so grateful to them and everyone else for helping us through this.

Meanwhile, we are trying to find Ethan a good prekindergarten class in the area, so if you have any recommendations, please send them our way! Thanks!

Update on Jacob's Health

2011-02-18T14:17:00.000-08:00

Sorry for the long gap in between posts on this blog. At the beginning of September, I went back to school to start earning a Ph.D., and lots of other things have been going on in our lives including selling our house in Redlands and preparing to move (which we're doing tomorrow). With everything that's been happening, Kylene and I have simply not had any time to update our family blog.

During the past couple months, we've continued to have follow-up visits with doctors regarding Jacob's chronic granulomatous disease, which we have mentioned previously on this blog. The doctors recommended that we consider having Jacob undergo a bone marrow transplant, which is presently the only way to cure CGD. After our initial visit with the bone marrow transplant doctors, it sounded to us like the treatment would potentially be worse than the disease; there are a lot of potentially major side effects to undergoing chemotherapy and bone marrow transplantation. Later we met with the CGD specialist doctor again, and he strongly advised us to reconsider. He explained that out of the 20+ CGD patients he's worked with, only one child survived to adulthood, and the doctor lost contact with the individual after he reached the age of 26. Normally CGD patients do not live beyond their teenage years if they try to rely solely on prophylactic medications like the ones that Jacob has been taking since his diagnosis, because prophylaxis simply cannot substitute for a healthy immune system and there are certain infections that are very dangerous for a CGD patient that cannot be prevented.

According to the CGD specialist doctor, Jacob's best chance for a longer and more normal life is to receive a bone marrow transplant. He said that the chance of a transplant successfully curing a CGD patient is fairly high. Since Ethan, Kylene, and I had been tested previously and found to not be close enough matches to be donors for Jacob, a nurse searched the bone marrow registry and found two donors who were a very good match, 14 out of 16 genetic markers (16/16 is pretty much only possible with an identical twin). A date was set for Jacob's admission to the hospital to undergo 10 days of chemotherapy followed by a bone marrow transplant. Jacob has been undergoing a number of tests over the past couple weeks to ensure that his body is ready to begin the process.

Yesterday we received some discouraging news about one of Jacob's recent tests. The chest CT scan that he had recently showed an enlarged lymph node in his lung. They will need to do a biopsy on his lung to find out if he has a fungal infection. (This gives us a lot of cause for concern because one of the bone marrow transplant doctors has told us previously that fungal infections are common in children who live in Loma Linda, which is right next to Redlands, and she indicated that [non-CGD] children who are preparing for transplants typically don't know about these infections until they're discovered in the CT scan.) In the mean time, they're postponing his chemotherapy and bone marrow transplant. Instead, he will soon have to be admitted to the hospital for the lung biopsy and other tests. We were told that he will be in the hospital for at least 3-4 days just for the tests (presumably longer if he needs treatment), but we don't know exactly what date he will be admitted. We are scheduled to meet with the doctors to find out more on Monday, February 28th.

If it turns out that he has a fungal infection in his lung, it would be at least several months before he could be a candidate for a bone marrow transplant again. However, fungal infections are very difficult to eradicate completely in CGD patients, and it's possible that he would never fully recover. That would mean that he would never be eligible for a transplant, and he probably would not live many years after that. Jacob is such a remarkable, pure, and innocent child, and we cannot bear the thought of losing him. We deeply hope that he doesn't have an incurable infection.

Please keep Jacob in your prayers. We try to take comfort in the words of James found in the New Testament: "And the prayer of faith shall save the sick, and the Lord shall raise him up... pray one for another, that ye may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man [or woman] availeth much" (James 5:15-16).

Happy 2nd Birthday, Jacob!

2010-06-28T15:13:00.000-07:00

I can't believe our little Jacob is already two! He's turning into such a big boy. Here are a few shots from his two-year-old photo shoot, birthday party, and a bonus picture from Father's Day. We love Jacob so much!

Art Fair, Park, Play, & Oak Glen

2010-04-16T11:10:00.000-07:00

I have a few things to catch up from the past couple of weeks. First of all, I want to show off Ethan's artwork from the art fair at his preschool. Along the top row of the collage from left to right: Ethan's gold star and a picture of him holding his puppet that he made of Bruce from Finding Nemo, Ethan posing in front of his easel painting with the green handprint, Ethan pointing to his square on his class quilt (Grandma Judy would be proud!). Along the bottom row: Ethan showing us his Bruce puppet, a picture of Ethan working on his easel painting, and the last picture is of Josh, Jacob and Ethan creating a piece of art.

This next collage includes some pictures taken from the park. Ethan and Josh were there, too. Josh was the cameraman and Ethan was always on the go and too hard to catch on camera.

Here are some shots of the boys playing out on the porch together.

Here is a cute shot I took with my phone camera of Jacob at our favorite park. We spend a lot of time at parks, since Jacob cannot safely play at the playground right in front of our house due to the wood chip ground. The mold that grows in wood chips is very dangerous for CGD patients. Unfortunately, Redlands' parks and schools all use them. Loma Linda, however, uses the rubber ground, which is safer for Jacob.

This last batch of pictures and the video below are from Ethan's preschool field trip to Riley's Farm in Oak Glen yesterday. I signed up to be a driver and got a feel for what it must be like to be a bus driver. I had six preschoolers (with their carseats) squished into the Pilot and another mom as my navigator. Ethan was certainly by far the loudest voice in the car, but the noise of the other kids just added to the chaos. Somehow we managed the trip safely and the kids had a lot of fun. Top row from left to right: kids sanitizing their hands to get ready for making apple cider, the kids sitting in front of a log cabin after exploring the inside, the kids getting loaded for their hayride. They learned to shout "wagons ho" to get the horses to start walking. Along the bottom: a close up of Ethan on the wagon, Ethan with a few of his classmates, and lastly, Ethan getting ready to throw his apple into the apple cider press.

Here is Ethan tossing his apple in. Each child got about 4 or 5 turns.

Happy Easter 2010

2010-04-03T20:12:00.000-07:00

I know it's a miracle that I'm actually updating our blog. I almost wrote it off as a lost cause, but found a little motivation to add something to it tonight. My motivation? My boys are just so stinkin' adorable! Hey, whatever works! Anyway, here is a collage of decorating eggs and doing an egg hunt at my parents' house last weekend. The weather was perfect and the boys had a blast!

Yes, I do love dressing my boys in matching outfits, and what's even better is that they love wearing matching outfits! I figure I may as well take advantage of their compliance while they think it is cool. These are their Easter shirts. They just LOVE saying cheese for the camera! So cute!

My Handsome Boys

2010-01-02T21:42:00.000-08:00

The other day I was looking at Ethan's preschool picture and I had one of those moments when I realized how fast he is growing up. The thought tugged on my tender mother heart, and I realized how quickly these moments are going to pass. I vowed to appreciate each day and each experience with my sons to the fullest. I feel so blessed to have these two precious boys in my life.

Merry Christmas

2010-01-02T21:35:00.000-08:00

This year Santa left the boys a train table and a drawing easel, among other things. The kids were so excited to see what they got and Santa was really feeling good about the decisions on which toys he gave them. Now, Santa's starting to wonder if these large toys were a bit too large for our small house. Where to store them when not in use? Oh well, they're only kids once, might as well enjoy, right? I mean, just look at those cute faces!

Christmas Eve Dinner at In-N-Out

2010-01-02T21:29:00.000-08:00

These pictures were just so cute I couldn't pass up this chance to share them.

Ethan's Preschool Christmas Show

2009-12-20T19:02:00.000-08:00

Ethan was so adorable! He knew his song really well and was close to a microphone so his voice stood out from the other children. There is a part of the song that says "Jesus is coming, open your heart," and if you listen carefully to the video around 40 seconds in, you can hear him say "Jesus is coming, open your silly heart." He's such a little jokester! (Lyrics below... or at least what we think they were singing.)

Jesus Is Coming

[Unintelligible]

Time to get ready

I'll do my part

Jesus is coming

Open your heart

Sing Hosanna

Jesus is coming

Time to get ready

Open your heart

[Unintelligible]

Someone is coming

Wait and see

[Unintelligible]

I'll do my part

Jesus is coming

Open your [silly] heart

Sing Hosanna

Jesus is coming

Time to get ready

Open your heart

Josh's Birthday and Stocking Stuffers

2009-12-20T19:00:00.000-08:00

We had an enjoyable birthday dinner at Josh's parents house to celebrate his special day. It's hard to believe I've known Josh for almost 12 years now. Time has flown by so fast. After Josh's birthday dinner, we opened our stocking stuffers with his family. As you can see from the collage, it's all about the kids at Christmas. Josh teased that they were breaking into their stocking stuffers before he had even finished reading his birthday card. Sorry, honey! It was a really fun night for all.

Christmas Photo Shoot at the Redlands Temple

2009-12-20T16:43:00.000-08:00

As always, you can double click the image to see the smaller pictures in more detail.

Thanksgiving

2009-12-20T16:20:00.000-08:00

Our boys love their cousins.

At Grandma & Grandpa Long's House

2009-12-20T16:05:00.000-08:00

Best Friends

2009-12-20T16:00:00.000-08:00

These two little guys are so cute! I love catching these moments when they are truly enjoying playing together.

Sharing the iPod

2009-12-19T20:40:00.000-08:00

Jacob recently discovered my iPod, and since he and Ethan love music, they insist on listening to mommy's playlist any time they find the iPod laying around. Cute boys!

Cute Jacob

2009-12-19T20:37:00.000-08:00

Boating on Bountiful

2009-11-07T21:23:00.000-08:00

Today was my first time out on my dad's recently purchased boat. He named it Bountiful, after the hometown of his childhood. It really is a beautiful boat and it's so relaxing to go out into the ocean. Included in the collage are photos of my gorgeous mother, my beautiful sister Alyse, my cute little seafaring Ethan, my dad the captain, the backside of Spencer (lol, sorry Spencer!), silly sea lions squished onto a buoy, a sailboat, the Queen Mary, and a lighthouse that marks the edge of the harbor. It was such an amazing day! Thanks to my parents for the invitation, to Spencer and Alyse for driving us, and to my eternal sweetheart, Josh, for taking such good care of Jacob at home. Love you guys!

Halloween

2009-11-07T21:09:00.000-08:00

Thanks to my wonderful in-laws for babysitting Jacob, Josh and I were able to take Ethan to our church's trunk or treat party this year. He dressed in his favorite Mater the Tow Truck costume and got tons of sugary goodness. A lot of my pictures are of Jacob and Ethan admiring their spoils after we got home. It was so funny to watch them sorting through all the candy. Jacob didn't even realize what it was at first, he was just having fun squishing and crunching all the wrappers. Ethan, however, was shoveling it in his little mouth as fast as he could. Our jack-o-lantern may need an explanation for most people. It's a character from the internet cartoon Homestar Runner named Strong Mad... did I get that right, honey? Josh did a great job and received the award for the most intricately carved pumpkin at the trunk or treat. We had a great time together. My sisters Alyse and Mackenzy were even able to come out to join us for the evening. We are seriously blessed with amazing family members. I have no idea where I'd be without such loving people in my life.

Ethan's Big Day

2009-11-07T20:56:00.000-08:00

It has taken me quite some time to get this posted because of everything that has happened recently with Jacob. We had a really fun celebration for Ethan's birthday shortly before Jacob was admitted to the hospital. Ethan had so much fun being with his beloved extended family. This year I asked him if he wanted to have a family party or a friends party. He chose a family party. We did, however, invite his favorite neighbor friend to join in the fun as well. The two of them kept the guests quite entertained as they ran excitedly around the house and played wild games with the balloons. I had no need to lead our guests in any games since everyone seemed content with watching Ethan and his buddy play. They were so delighted with everything! Such sweet kids. I feel so blessed to be Ethan and Jacob's mommy. Ethan is growing up into such a loving and happy little guy. He is a wonderful big brother and such a delight to have in our family. His energy keeps daily life interesting for all of us and we love him so much! Happy Birthday to our first born!

Before and After Shots

2009-11-07T20:34:00.000-08:00

Just wanted to share the amazing transformation in our little Jacob from the beginning of his hospital stay to when he first arrived home.

Before

After: so plump and happy, with color in his cheeks!

Recovery

2009-11-04T20:04:00.000-08:00

Sorry to have taken a while to include this update; we have been enjoying being home together again. Jacob was discharged from the hospital last week, making his stay a total of four weeks. We have been busy with follow up appointments, which will become normal for our family now since Jacob's condition is chronic. In a few weeks we have an appointment with a specialist at Children's Hospital in L.A. It will be nice to talk to a doctor who actually has experience working with CGD patients.

Thanks again to everyone for being so supportive of our family. We feel blessed to have such wonderful family and friends.

Seeing the Light

2009-10-17T10:25:00.000-07:00

Jacob got his PICC line in on Monday after a very emotional day of not allowing him to eat. There are only two nurses at Kaiser Fontana certified in PICC insertion, so we had to wait all day before the team of doctors and nurses could assemble for the procedure. In the mean time, Jacob couldn't eat because he had to go 6 hours without food or drink prior to sedation, and we were told they would try to do the procedure yesterday morning, not evening. Poor Jacob had to go without food or drink for nearly 24 hours.

Last Sunday, a blood test for IBDs (inflammatory bowel diseases, including Crohn's disease and ulcerative colitis) came back negative. However, the test for CGD came back positive.

Now that Jacob has been properly diagnosed, he is receiving the best care the doctors can provide. He received a blood transfusion Wednesday night after finding out that his hemoglobin was at a shockingly low 7.4. Thursday morning, Jacob was a new baby! He was so happy and playful. The transfusion was a success, bringing his hemoglobin level up to 11. Thursday night he began receiving his TPN (a nutritional supplement) through his PICC line. A healthy person's nutritional level is supposed to be between a 20-40; Jacob was at an 8. Yesterday I noticed a definite increase in appetite and I hope that he quickly regains a healthy nutritional level. Jacob has been on a mild dose of steriods for the past three days to help calm down the colitis. We should know by next week or so if the treatment is enough to cure the colitis. Once his diarrhea is gone and he is steadily gaining weight back, we will be discharged from the hospital. Jacob is also taking an iron supplement to maintain a healthy hemoglobin level; and a sulpha drug, and an antifungal drug twice a day to help prevent any future infections that could land us back in the hospital. (As a reminder, Jacob doesn't have the specific disease ulcerative colitis, but colitis is a term that accurately describes his gastrointestinal problems.) CGD is a hereditary white blood cell defect which means Jacob is more prone to infections.

Josh and I have both sent in blood to be tested to see who is the carrier of CGD. The doctors also want to test Ethan for CGD because it is more common in boys.

According to one report, CGD affects only 1 in 200,000 people in the United States with only 20 cases diagnosed each year. Another source says that as few as 1 in 1,000,000 people has CGD.

Here's some reading material on CGD:
http://children.webmd.com/granulomatous-disease-chronic-10639
http://www.nlm.nih.gov/medlineplus/ency/article/001239.htm
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chronic_granulomatous_disease

Thank you for your earnest prayers in our behalf. Although Jacob's diagnosis was a devastating shock to us all, we have been strengthened and uplifted by everyone's prayers, love, and support. Jacob is looking better everyday. Now we're just hoping for the very best results with the steroid treatment so we can get our little angel home.

Here is a meal calendar for anyone who is interested: https://spreadsheets.google.com/ccc?key=tAAegH4xOzJJ6wWljCxIz0Q

Update on Jacob

2009-10-10T09:53:00.000-07:00

Thank you to everyone who has been so supportive during this difficult time for our family. I'm so grateful for the many many words of encouragement and support, and to know of all the prayers being offered in Jacob's behalf. He is now on his 12th day in the hospital with no end in sight. He seems to be running into one complication after another and just when I think we've hit the bottom, I find out it can get worse. Right now they're suspecting he may have picked up the flu at the hospital (most likely, swine flu) because of his spiking fevers the past three days, and last night be began vomiting. They did a swab last night and will know the results in a few days. Once he recovers from this virus and the pneumonia (which was confirmed positive in a chest x-ray yesterday), they will decide what treatment will be best to treat the Crohn's flare up. On a positive note, last they checked, his red blood cell count was up from 8.4 to 8.6. Normal range is between 10-14. It's good to see it coming up because if it dips into the 7's, he would need a blood transfusion. We are anxiously awaiting the PICC line because his weight continues to decline. WIth a PICC line in place, he can be nourished through it. Despite the heavy weight of this trial, we truly feel of your love and feel so blessed to have such wonderful friends and family to buoy us up along the way.

Our Little Patient

2009-10-04T10:45:00.000-07:00

Hang in there, little guy!

Grandpa Taylor & Jacob

Big brother, Ethan, comes to visit.

Finally on his 5th day, he is allowed in the play room.

Last Tuesday our little Jacob was admitted to the hospital. He has been quite sick for some time and has not been able to recover on his own. He stopped gaining weight back in April because his body was focusing all of its energy on fighting the ulcers and inflammation lining his large intestine. A colonoscopy revealed that he most likely has ulcerative colitis, a disease that generally affects older teenagers and adults. Jacob has been the most patient little patient. He has endured more than any small child should ever have to go through. He had an IV in his right hand for the first 5 days of his stay, and then they transfered it to his foot yesterday. He is happy to use both hands, but has a hard time walking around with a big board on his foot. I can't handle getting into specifics of other tests and procedures they have done to him because it makes me feel too depressed. Thank you to everyone who is praying for our little Jacob and our family. This has been the most trying experience of our lives and we wouldn't be able to endure it without the support of our family and friends. Jacob is still in the hospital as of today. He has a CT scan scheduled for tomorrow. I hope he is well enough to return home this week. Please keep him in your prayers.

Syvanah's 3rd Birthday Party

2009-08-31T13:09:00.000-07:00

My mom, Ethan, Jacob, and I drove out to Mesa to celebrate my niece's 3rd birthday. She had a Hawaiian themed birthday party which turned out really fun.

Jacob's Walking!

2009-08-25T18:59:00.000-07:00

Ethan's First Day of Preschool

2009-08-25T12:53:00.000-07:00

Our handsome big boy! You can see a picture of me on the collage in the background. That's funny, I just noticed that! :)

Ethan just started preschool today and loves it! It's so nice to have an activity for him to look forward to twice a week. He's such a ball of energy and thrives when he has somewhere to expend it. I didn't get emotional dropping him off and he didn't seem to care when I left. I guess we were both very ready for him to start school. It sounds like he got along with his classmates today and had fun participating in the different activities his teachers shared. He said his teacher told him all about ladybugs and he seemed really excited about it.

Jacob and I dropping Ethan off in his classroom

The rainbow classroom. Ethan has four girls and eight boys in his class!

Great Times With The Longs

2009-08-12T19:57:00.000-07:00

We recently had our annual Long gathering at Tom and Jeannette's and thoroughly enjoyed catching up with everyone. Our kids had a blast connecting with their (2nd?) cousins and Ethan insisted that we have to go back to Tom and Jeannette's house again really soon. We feel blessed to be a part of such a great family!

Family Vacation

2009-07-30T10:43:00.000-07:00

St. George, UT and Cove Fort

The first stop on our summer vacation was in St. George. We wanted to visit the St. George Temple, but first came across the St. George Tabernacle. We did a tour there and learned some interesting history about the city. Next we visited the temple grounds, where a newly married couple was being photographed. I always love to see that! Brings back memories of our own wedding day. After we finished looking around the temple and going through the visitor's center, we had lunch at Nielsen's Frozen Custard. Yum! For anyone who loves ice cream, you can't pass through St. George or Bountiful, UT without stopping in for this delicious treat! Next on our trek north on the I-15, we stopped into Cove Fort and did a tour there. I've passed it so many times throughout my life, but can't remember ever stopping in to learn more about it. We found it very interesting. That night we stayed at Grandma Turner's house in Orem, UT.

Idaho Falls Temple

We drove from Orem to Island Park, ID the next day, with plenty of stops along the way. Our favorite stop was at the Idaho Falls Temple. It's so beautiful! The kids enjoyed stretching their little legs on the temple grounds (we didn't see any newlyweds this time).

Island Park, ID

Our first full day at the cabin also happened to be my mom's birthday. She got some special birthday hugs from all four of her grandchildren. The older ones were super excited about Grandma's birthday cake.

Yellowstone National Park, Day 1

On our first day inside the park, our final goal was to see Old Faithful. Along the way we made a couple of other stops and saw some amazingly beautiful geysers. As you can see, little J had to sneak in a nap on the go. Ethan quickly bonded with Jacob Stoddard, and those two hung out a good part of the reunion. We also had our first wildlife sighting of a couple of elk. One of them was collared.

Mack's Inn, Mt. Sawtelle, and Roasting Marshmallows

The next day one of Josh's former missionary companions, Mike, came up to hang out with us. First we went to Mack's Inn to see Johnny Sack's cabin and Big Spring. Next we drove to Sawtelle Peak. The drive was a bit scary because the road up the mountain was narrow and unpaved. I'm glad we went up, though. From the summit, we could see out over three states (Idaho, Montana, and Wyoming) and a good park of Yellowstone Park. I think everyone enjoyed the campfire that night, making s'mores and other creative roasted marshmallow snacks.

Geyser Basin

Wednesday we returned to the park to view Geyser Basin. It was breathtaking! We ended up hiking around on some dirt trails, pushing the double stroller over some pretty rough terrain. On the way home that day, we got stuck in about an hour of traffic. We kept our fingers crossed that it was an animal sighting and not a car accident. By the time we got up to the front, we were not disappointed. A bison was sunbathing in the middle of the road, and his family was off to the side, causing quite a traffic jam. It was amazing to be that close to such a huge animal in the wild!

West Yellowstone

The next day we hung out in West Yellowstone without actually entering the park. We saw a couple of movies at the IMAX theater (Yellowstone and Bears) and Josh took Ethan to the Grizzly & Wolf Discovery Center where he could see wolves and bears up close.

Grand Canyon of Yellowstone

Our final day in the park was my personal favorite. We saw several bison throughout the day, an eagle's nest with the baby looking out and the mother perched nearby, and the views of the river, waterfalls, and canyon were beyond description. We also got caught in a brief, but heavy cloud burst. You can see the looming clouds in the scenic pictures.

Journey Home

We had to make lots of stops on the way home. Ethan was doing fine thanks to the DVD player that we borrowed, but Jacob decided he was done with his car seat. Poor little guy. By the time we got in to Vegas to look for our hotel for the night, he was crying so hard that he threw up. That was the first time he'd ever done that. :o( These are some pictures from three of our stops: one for a Twinkie break, one to take a look at the Rexberg, ID Temple, and one was a lunch break when Jacob learned how to pucker up for a kiss!

Disneyland's Birthday

2009-07-30T10:35:00.000-07:00

Here are some cute pictures of Ethan, Dan, and Judy from earlier this month. Ethan really did have a great time. I'm not sure why he looks mad/comatose in his pictures! lol He looks really ticked at Tinkerbell. lol

Stayin' Cool

2009-07-11T21:47:00.000-07:00

Today when Ethan asked for a popsicle, I told him yes, but that he'd have to eat it out on the front porch because it would be messy. He happily agreed to my terms and took his popsicle out to the porch swing. A few minutes later I grabbed my camera thinking I'd get a cute picture of a sticky Ethan. I was surprised to see he had already finished off his treat, with just one little drip on his shirt, and was relaxing in the swing. I was excited to have him sitting still long enough to take a couple cute pictures of my little man.

Redlands Library Days

2009-07-11T21:43:00.000-07:00

Our city library has a children's summer reading program. If a child reads four books per week, then they get a coupon for a free ice cream. I signed up both Ethan and Jacob. So every week we go to the library, check out four books, sit outside the library on the grass, and I read stories to them. I'm not sure how much they are listening, as you can tell from the pictures, but they enjoy this outing. We then go return our books and pick up our ice cream coupon and go out for ice cream. It's nice to have something fun like this to do during the hot summer days!

4th of July Fireworks

2009-07-08T23:11:00.000-07:00

Here's a video clip of the aforementioned Independence Day fireworks at the University of Redlands. Ethan absolutely loved the show and asks to see this clip over and over again.

Independence Day

2009-07-07T09:29:00.000-07:00

This was the first year we took Ethan to a fireworks show. In years past we always decided that he was too young and would be scared from the loud explosions. He ended up loving the fireworks show and has asked me everyday since the 4th if we can see the fireworks again. My dad, sister, and bro-in-law came with us, while Josh graciously stayed home with Jacob. It was a great celebration at the University of Redlands. I haven't been to a firework show for years and this show exceeded my expectations.
Ethan drank so much of my dad's and Spencer's drinks that I had to take him potty twice within one hour. He was so thirsty! Not to mention he loves sugary cola drinks.

Ethan in Primary

2009-07-05T12:33:00.000-07:00

Primary Teacher: "Jesus can help us to feel better."

Ethan: "Jesus doesn't make me feel better, mommy does! She puts medicine on my owie and then puts a bandage on it."

Picking Fruit With Grandpa Dan

2009-07-04T08:59:00.001-07:00

Best Buds

2009-07-03T21:44:00.000-07:00

We wanted to capture Ethan and Jacob playing together, but Josh and I just noticed that it looks like Ethan is measuring Jacob's head in one picture and ready to drill through his head in the next! Jacob is playing the willing participant. We got a good chuckle out of those two shots.

Jacob Practicing Walking

2009-07-03T21:36:00.000-07:00

Ethan's DCA Trip with Grandma & Grandpa Long

2009-07-03T20:58:00.000-07:00

Ethan wanted to meet Mickey Mouse, but was hiding behind his hat and glasses.

Mickey Mouse decided to take matters into his own giant hands. Ethan is normally very particular about how he wears his hat by wearing it really low on his face. He won't let anyone adjust it; however, when Mickey adjusted it, he didn't protest even the tiniest bit.

Ethan loves Mickey Mouse!

Father's Day

2009-06-21T21:42:00.000-07:00

We had a fun day at Josh's parents' house to celebrate and honor our fathers and husbands. Judy made steaks and I made garlic mashed potatoes. A manly man meal for the men in our lives. I'm so grateful for my husband, for my father, and for my father-in-law. I feel blessed to have these wonderful and honorable men in my life.

It's me, Josh, making a rare appearance posting something on our family blog! Normally I'm busy working on my LOST blog, my computer security blog, or one of my podcasts (or, you know, working at my real job), but I thought this Father's Day gift from Ethan was really cute and had to post it myself!

Teeth and Stairs

2009-06-18T20:48:00.000-07:00

So I guess now that Jacob is one year old, he decided to get his first tooth. I took him in for his immunizations on Monday and the doctor said his gums looked tender and when I mentioned that he frequently tugs on his ears, she said he is definitely teething. The very next day I could see his first little tooth cutting through on the bottom!

That same day I was vacuuming the house and left the boys downstairs while I vacuumed upstairs. When I came down to put the vacuum away, Jacob was on the third stair and started to sit down. Luckily Josh caught him before he had a tumble down the stairs. Stair gate time! I need to get in the habit of putting it up. Today I was watching both boys downstairs and didn't have the gate up because I figured Jacob just likes to stay near me and wouldn't attempt the stairs. Plus, the downstairs isn't very big so I figured I could keep my eye on him wherever he is. Well, Ethan had me distracted with something for maybe 30 seconds or so, and when I looked up to find Jacob, he was half way up the stairs! I have never jumped up so fast to dash to the rescue. He started sitting down right before I got to him and fell back one step before I caught him. You better believe the gate went up immediately. I completely underestimated my little munchkin. If I had even taken one second longer to get to him, he would've had a nasty fall. My heart was racing and my hands shaking after rescuing him just thinking of what could've happened to him. Now I know the gate needs to go up every time he's downstairs. Whew!

Happy 1st Birthday, Jacob!

2009-06-16T21:57:00.000-07:00

Josh, Jacob, and Ethan in the parking lot after the movie

Ethan and Syvanah during their bug hunt

Birthday festivities and cake

To celebrate our little man's special day, we took Ethan and Jacob to see the new Pixar movie "Up" and Jacob did surprisingly well. I thought he'd be scared of the loud sounds, but he didn't seem bothered by it. He was getting really wiggly and tired by the end, but we made it through his first movie!

The following day we threw a family party. Josh's mom told me a while back that she was making a "Very Hungry Caterpillar" themed quilt for his birthday gift, and so I decided to go with a bug themed birthday party. To start off, Ethan and Syvanah enjoyed a bug hunt with their new bug cages. Aunt Mackenzy set out lots of fake bugs in the backyard for the kids to find. Before the game started, Syvanah tried picking one up and so Mackenzy told her not to or else they would bite her. Well, you probably guessed it, when the game started, she didn't want to pick up the bugs and when Shelby finally made her do it, she cried. She did however, quickly figure out that the bugs weren't real and stopped crying. We enjoyed a Mexican-style potluck dinner featuring Aunt Sue and Grandma Judy's delicious chicken enchiladas with green sauce and beef enchiladas with red sauce. Yum! Jacob's birthday cake was caterpillar shaped, formed out of green frosted cupcakes and a red frosted head to resemble the "Very Hungry Caterpillar." The guests all had the green cupcakes and Jacob got to eat the head, which was Josh's masterpiece. Originally, the head turned out pink, but Josh mixed a little powdered sugar with red food dye and painted the cake red. Then he dyed the red licorice black using a mixture of food dyes. Good job, honey! Grandma and Grandpa Taylor provided their famous homemade peach ice cream to go along with the cake. Later on, we played a game of pin the bee on the flower. That was pretty fun, except poor Ethan ran into the wall while he was blindfolded. He was a good sport about it though. Jacob received a lot of darling toys which he and Ethan have been thoroughly enjoying! Thanks to everyone who helped make this a birthday to remember!

Jacob had an awesome first birthday! We love him so much!

Cousins

2009-06-10T14:03:00.000-07:00

My sister Shelby is visiting from Arizona, which means Ethan and Jacob get to play with their cousins Taylor and Syvanah. I wanted to share this cute picture of all four of them playing at our house.

Celebrating our Fifth Anniversary in Indio

2009-06-10T13:31:00.000-07:00

(If you double click on the collage, you can view it larger.) Thanks to Mom and Dad Long, we had a fun family weekend getaway to Indio to celebrate our fifth wedding anniversary! The weather was unusually pleasant for this time of year with highs in the 80s. (Josh and I went two years ago and endured weather of 120°!)

We checked into the Worldmark resort on Thursday afternoon and spent that evening having dinner and getting settled into our two-bedroom room, which Ethan enthusiastically called our new home!

On Friday we spent a lot of time playing at the one-foot deep kiddie pool. It was perfect for Ethan! He played in there for two hours straight! Unfortunately, I forgot to bring the camera down to the pool so we don't have any pictures of that. Mom and Dad Long arrived Friday evening to help with the children so that Josh and I could enjoy an evening out. We dined at the Olive Garden in Palm Desert, and then we searched around for a movie theater that was playing "Star Trek." We were unsuccessful at that and so headed back to the resort.

Saturday we all went to the Living Desert park to look at the animals. When we got home we relaxed for a little while, then Josh and I headed down to the Lazy River at the resort. Strangely enough, it was a little too cold outside even though the water was heated, so we ended up in the jacuzzi. When our fingers started getting pruney, we headed back up to our room to order pizza and watch Wall-E with Dad, Jacob, and Ethan. Mom had come down with a fever that night and was resting.

Sunday morning, we got up and got ready for a 9:00 church meeting. After speeding over to the church, we discovered an empty parking lot. Apparently, we happened to be visiting Indio during their Stake Conference. Not knowing where to go from there, we headed back to the resort to start gathering our things. We checked out at noon and were sad to leave, but look forward to another trip to that beautiful resort in the future!

Potluck at the Taylors'

2009-06-03T22:43:00.000-07:00

One Sunday a month my extended family members get together for a potluck dinner. We rotate around between the Taylors', Chows', and our home. It's a lot of fun. Ethan especially loves his Grandmas, Grandpas, crazy Aunties and Uncles, and his cousins. He gets really hyper, which makes getting a picture of him very difficult. Josh and I have found that capturing him on video is much more effective. However, Jacob holds nice and still for very cute pictures.

What a simple way to build family unity, have some good laughs, and create memories that will last a lifetime. Thanks Alyse, for coming up with this tradition!

Boys at Play

2009-06-03T22:07:00.000-07:00

Last week Ethan and Jacob were invited to a birthday party for their buddy Orion. It was at a place called "My Gym," where there is a wide array of activities for children to do, such as a trampoline, ball pit, ladder/slide, barrels, and hula hoops, to name a few. My boys had such a fun time and Ethan really worked up a sweat, too. It'd be nice if he had the opportunity to use up this kind of energy everyday!

Memorial Day 2009

2009-06-01T15:51:00.000-07:00

We celebrated Memorial Day at the park with our extended family members. We enjoyed a potluck dinner and then let the kids play. It was extra special this year because Grandma Taylor was down visiting from Oregon and Shelby, Syvanah, and Taylor were visiting from Arizona. We are truly blessed with amazing family. What a wonderful opportunity to gather in honor of those who have given their lives from our country. We are so grateful for America and for all the brave men and women throughout history who have sacrificed their lives in defense of our freedom. May God continue to bless this great nation!

So big!

2009-05-24T21:03:00.000-07:00

Just wanted to share this cute picture of Jacob. He is so proud of himself that he can pull himself up to stand now. Way to go, little man!

Ethan and Jacob at the Fire Station

2009-05-24T20:49:00.000-07:00

Last week I had the opportunity to take the boys to the Redlands Fire Station on a tour. It was fun to see all the trucks and gear up close. Ethan had a great time, but cried a bunch because he couldn't take away his buddy's toy fire truck. As you can see in some of the pictures, he did end up playing with the truck by the end of the tour. The firemen allowed the children to climb through the truck to get a photo taken as they came out the other side. I thought that would've been really cute, but Ethan just cried over the toy truck and said he didn't want to climb into the fire truck. After we got home from the tour he decided that he wanted to go back and climb in the fire truck. Too late, little guy! Ethan also cried when the fireman was teaching the children how to stop, drop, and roll. All the other kids had fun rolling on the floor, but when I nudged Ethan to get on the floor, he threw himself down all dramatically and started bawling. I think most moms would've been flustered or embarrassed, but I'm so used to Ethan's drama that I don't even feel embarrassed anymore. Even with the fireman and other moms looking at me wondering what happened to my kid, I just smile and wait for Ethan to get distracted and stop with his bawling.

Ethan's First Camping Trip

2009-05-17T16:06:00.000-07:00

Josh took Ethan camping for the annual Fathers and Sons overnighter in our ward. They went up Friday night and came home late Saturday morning. Ethan had the time of his life! He's told me several times between yesterday and today that he wants to go camping again. Maybe next year.

This is totally off-topic, but I thought it was really funny: Last night when Josh was helping Ethan get his pajamas on, Josh put Ethan's pajama shirt on his own head. Ethan thought that was really funny and said, "You smell like a goat!" Josh quickly figured out that he meant to say, "You look like a ghost!" We had a good chuckle over that one.

Jacob's 11 Month Mark

2009-05-12T20:28:00.000-07:00

Our sweet Jacob is now 11 months old! It's hard to believe he will be one year old in another month. Time has gone so fast since he was born. He's been such a joy to have as a baby. We love him with all our hearts and can't imagine our family without him. It's cute to see how much he loves his big brother, Ethan. He will follow Ethan wherever he goes, crawling as fast as he can to keep up. His whole countenance lightens up whenever he sees his daddy. He will smile and point at Josh to play with him. He also loves to play peekaboo. Jacob is starting to warm up to other people, although he is still a mama's boy.

Magnet

2009-05-11T07:40:00.000-07:00

Last Friday morning Ethan accidentally swallowed a small but strong magnet. He panicked after it happened, knowing that he shouldn't be eating nonfood objects. I called Poison Control to find out if we needed to take him in to his doctor, but they assured me there was no potential for poisoning from a magnet. However, they did say that we had to dig through his stools for the next couple of days to make sure the magnet passed. If we couldn't find it, then we'd have to take him in for x-rays, which we really wanted to avoid. After three days and several dry heaves later, I'm proud to announce that we found the magnet this morning. Josh and I had this ingenious idea to save us some of the horror of the task of looking for it. We took another very strong magnet and used it to pull out the other one. Ethan is relieved that the magnet is not in his tummy anymore and we are even more relieved that we no longer have to search for it.

Mother's Day 2009

2009-05-10T13:39:00.000-07:00

Happy Mother's Day! I'm really excited for Josh's gifts to me. For his first gift, he moved the computer and computer desk out of Jacob's room into our bedroom! Yay! Now I can blog more regularly and add pictures more easily than before. What a great gift! It was so hard to use the computer before because normally I wanted to work on this while Jacob was napping, but since the computer was in his room, I couldn't. Anyway, problem solved, and I'm one happy mommy! I'm also excited to be able to decorate Jacob's room into a baby's room. The other gift was a beautiful red rose bouquet, which is the centerpiece on our brand new breakfast nook kitchen table set (thanks Mom & Dad Long!).

Later today we are having family over and all the married men are providing dinner. Josh is working on the lasagna right now. I'm so proud of him!

In church today, the primary children sang two Mother's Day songs to the congregation. When the children were invited to the front to sing, Ethan started walking up, then he changed his mind and came back and sat down with us. I felt sad because I was really looking forward to seeing him sing. For the second song, all the children received a rose to give to their moms, so I told Ethan, "go up and get a flower." He said ok and headed up to the front for the second song. The only sad part about it was he was in the back since he went up late, so I couldn't see his cute little face.

I love being a Mom and enjoying my special day!

Dedicated to Shelby

2009-05-01T14:53:00.000-07:00

I'm embarrassed that this is my first post for the entire year, but maybe if I get it over with, it won't be so hard to continue on from here. We will see. Anyway, the most recent news around here is that Jacob is in the 3rd percentile for his weight and 0 percentile for his height. If anyone has any advice to boost his growth, let me know. I've been feeding him more at each meal, which he doesn't seem to mind, so we will continue on from there.

I'm dedicating this post to Shelby because she inspired me to get back into blogging, reminding me what a great family history this can be... and it's so much more fun than writing in a journal!

Fall Festivities

2008-10-21T09:05:00.001-07:00

On Saturday we attended the Hillside Ward Fall Festival with my parents, Mackenzy, and Grandma Taylor. Before heading over to the church building for the party, Ethan, Josh, and I carved a jack-o-lantern. It's fun having a child old enough to really get into the holiday festivities this year. He helped scoop out the seeds from the pumpkin and picked out which facial design he wanted from a few that Josh sketched out. After carving the pumpkin, we got the boys ready in their costumes. Ethan is a safari guide this year, and Jacob went from being a surfer boy to a train conductor to a slumber party baby. My mom dressed up as a slumber party girl and Mackenzy was a gangster.

Today I'm taking the boys to the Live Oak Pumpkin Patch with the mom's group from my ward. I took Ethan last year and he enjoyed seeing all the pumpkins. Plus they have a petting zoo with goats and some other types of animals.

Next Thursday is our ward's primary Halloween party at a retirement home. The kids get to dress up in their costumes, then they will sing for the residents, and at the end, the residents like to hand out candies to the children. Although Ethan isn't officially primary age, I'm going to dress him up and let him trick or treat to the residents since he will be there with me anyway. It's one of the perks he gets for having his mommy serve in primary.

Next Friday we are driving out to Mesa to visit my sister and her family. Since that is Halloween day, we plan on taking the children out trick or treating to some of her friends from her ward. All in all, we are having an enjoyable holiday season and look forward to the upcoming events. I will post more pictures soon!

Family Pictures

2008-09-21T19:34:00.000-07:00

Where has the month gone? I can't believe September is almost over and this is my first post for the month... possibly my last. Yesterday we went to the JC Penney photo studio to get new family pictures with Jacob. Doing a photo shoot with Ethan is quite a circus. He can't stay still enough for the poor photographer to take his picture. He kept falling off the little wooden box that she had him stand on because he was wiggling around so much. She made the comment that she's never had a kid fall off the box before. Ethan is such a crack up. The family picture we finally decided on has Ethan with his mouth wide open. He couldn't follow two directions at once: to keep him arms down and his mouth closed, so we just settled for an open mouth. It captures his personality anyway and it's very cute. I can't believe how fast time has flown once we started having kids. Our most recent family picture before getting these done yesterday, was taken August of last year. Ethan isn't even two-years-old in those pictures. Anyway, I'm glad we updated that. There are still some other pictures on our walls that need some updating, like the ones of Ethan when he was five months old that hang next to our Family Proclamation. Life is so busy with two kids. Our poor future number three child will be lucky if he/she has any baby pictures!

Just a side note: Ethan wore big boy underwear to church today for the first time and he stayed dry! Hooray! My little guy is potty trained! Jacob is still such a sweet baby. He's happy, sleeps well, and makes the cutest baby noises. I love my boys!

DCA & Disneyland

2008-08-31T09:29:00.001-07:00

Yesterday we went to Disneyland & Disney's California Adventure (DCA) for the first time this year. It was Jacob's first visit ever. He loved people watching with me, and Ethan had a great time going on rides with Josh. It was fun spending the day with Josh's parents and Aunt Sue, who were all super helpful with our kiddos. We took two strollers since Jacob is too little to sit up in our double stroller. We spent most of the day at DCA since it was less crowded. We went on the new Toy Story ride and found it to be quite enjoyable! It is very similar to the Buzz Lightyear ride in Disneyland. The ride moves around to different screens where the rider gets to shoot their cannon at different targets building up his/her score. We then spent a lot of time in the Bug's Life area of DCA. The rides there are appropriate for kids Ethan's age, so he was able to go on all of them. Jacob even went on one ride with us ... the Heimlich caterpillar train ride. We finished off the day at Disneyland, where it was more crowded (but not terrible, considering it was a holiday weekend). Josh and I went on the Buzz Lightyear ride, while Josh's parents and Aunt watched the boys for us. All of us enjoyed some delicious ice cream before heading home. All in all, we had a wonderful day. We are going back in September and October because we have the $99.00 Southern California 3-day hopper passes, which expire in the middle of October. It's fun experiencing the Magic Kingdom through the eyes of a child. What a fun place to create lasting memories with our family!

A note to moms of babies: Going to Disneyland with a new baby can be somewhat of a challenge. It wasn't terribly hot yesterday, but it was humid and Jacob kept sweating around the back of his head whenever he was in his stroller. I took him out as much as possible so he could stretch and air out his neck and head. Nursing is also a huge factor when taking a new baby. When we took Ethan to Disneyland for the first time, Josh's mom informed me of the Gerber Baby Station located on Main Street. Inside they have a private area with rocking chairs for nursing, another area with changing tables, and a nice little kitchen with a microwave and high chairs. It makes it so convenient being at the park with a baby. This time around, we discovered that there is a similar baby station at DCA, just next to the Mission Tortilla Factory. It has the same conveniences, except there are only two nursing areas which are completely curtained off for privacy. The nursing area at Disneyland is a private room, but it has about 8 chairs in it for nursing, which means you are in there with other moms.